Foresight
Enlightened
- Jun 14, 2019
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This is something I wrote today about my struggle with recovery. I've never written anything ever, so it's just a really unskilled little thing.
I live each day slipping through the cracks of life
never with enough strength to knock down any walls and let some real light in
I lodge between these tight spaces
and attempt to hide
to be unseen
but they see me
the stones I slip through have scratched and bruised my body
and they see that
and I see them
I look as they not only knock down walls
but take the stones and build stairs
and ascend to places I'll never see
instead I live here between these cracks
with nothing but the dim light of my imagination
that's where I see that my body is getting too bloated to continue to fit
it's bursting at the seams with all that I carry
so I've decided to train
I do so not knowing
if it's to continue to slide through tomorrow's cracks
or maybe, just maybe
to finally have the strength to knock down a wall
and perhaps even build a stair
no, most likely I'll release myself of some of my body
just to be able to slip down into my final space
a place where even the dim light of my imagination is gone
I live each day slipping through the cracks of life
never with enough strength to knock down any walls and let some real light in
I lodge between these tight spaces
and attempt to hide
to be unseen
but they see me
the stones I slip through have scratched and bruised my body
and they see that
and I see them
I look as they not only knock down walls
but take the stones and build stairs
and ascend to places I'll never see
instead I live here between these cracks
with nothing but the dim light of my imagination
that's where I see that my body is getting too bloated to continue to fit
it's bursting at the seams with all that I carry
so I've decided to train
I do so not knowing
if it's to continue to slide through tomorrow's cracks
or maybe, just maybe
to finally have the strength to knock down a wall
and perhaps even build a stair
no, most likely I'll release myself of some of my body
just to be able to slip down into my final space
a place where even the dim light of my imagination is gone