Venting Coward

[rollingthunder]

I feel like such a coward... It would be so much easier and faster for me to just go out and buy a shotgun and CTB that way. Where I live it's incredibly easy to do. I know the store I will go to (I have been there before), and know the exact gun I want there, I even have the money I'll need for both the gun and ammo in cash in my wallet right now. I know where I will shoot myself, researched the correct angle, planned everything perfectly. But this violent prospect scares me so I've been researching SN and how to do it. It would be slightly more expensive and more complicated to do SN but still possible. I just feel like a coward when the easy fast option is right in front of me.

If I do end up doing SN, I might try to get a blood oxygen monitor or something like that to track things during the CTB process, and document it here, to help collect more information about this method. At least then I will have finally been of some use to someone.

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

You're not a coward, this is just your basic human instinct

 

[Worndown]

Coward??? This is by far the ballsiest thing anyone will EVER do.
Anyone can climb a mountain, bungie off a bridge or hunt a tiger. Those activities have risk. CTB is risk!

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

It would be slightly more expensive and more complicated to do SN but still possible.

I don't mean to sound like an asshole or anything, but how is SN more expensive than a gun?

And all that doesn't make you a coward. People have different preferences for things, that's all. Some people love yellow color, some think it's ugly af. Same thing here. Gotta find the method you're most comfortable with.