Covert narcissism/borderline

[stillthinkingabtit]

So I think I have covert/vulnerable narcissism's and borderline's traits. I see a lot of myself in some of the description. I've been doing therapy for 8 years almost with different professionals and taking medicine for 15 years for depression. If I'm a covert narcissist I don't see the point in living, it'll never change and I'll always be miserable. Does anyone with a CN have a different reality? I know borderlines can get better with therapy and time, but not narcissists. The problem is that I'm still extremely scared and sad to plan and execute my death. I desperately need a friend, someone I could talk to. I may have these illnesses, but I'm good at listening too. The difference I think I have from a lot of narcissists maybe is that I feel I have empathy for many people and other living beings. I am so sad, I wish there was a way out other than suicide.

 

[wham311]

I think I am too.