Apostle
Student
- Apr 17, 2019
- 129
One of the infamous things about ctb by hanging is the horrific sight it leaves behind, and I despise the thought of my family being greeted by my limp, suspended body and my empty eyes. But as much as I wish I had a better option that'd leave me in a slightly less disturbing position, like lying on the floor or something, hanging is what I have to go with if I am to ctb in my situation.
I've been wondering if there's a good way to "soften" the image and lessen the trauma toward my family. The first thing that comes to mind is to overdress a little. Wearing warm, thick clothes that cover as much of my skin as possible, including some type of makeshift mask to cover my face, such as a bag. When they see a suicide note, a corpse, and the shape of my body, they're bound to know it's me hanging there, and shouldn't need to see much gruesome detail in order to confirm that. It'd still be horrible to find your relative dead, I'm aware, but at least I might be able to avoid leaving a specific image burned into their memories.
The only fear there, is the thought of someone pulling the mask off, which has the risk of being even more traumatizing than just walking in and immediately seeing my face. It's my hope that everyone would just leave my body alone and covered until the proper authorities would arrive to identify and remove it themselves.
Does this idea have a decent chance of working the way it's intended to, or is it likelier to make things worse instead?
I've been wondering if there's a good way to "soften" the image and lessen the trauma toward my family. The first thing that comes to mind is to overdress a little. Wearing warm, thick clothes that cover as much of my skin as possible, including some type of makeshift mask to cover my face, such as a bag. When they see a suicide note, a corpse, and the shape of my body, they're bound to know it's me hanging there, and shouldn't need to see much gruesome detail in order to confirm that. It'd still be horrible to find your relative dead, I'm aware, but at least I might be able to avoid leaving a specific image burned into their memories.
The only fear there, is the thought of someone pulling the mask off, which has the risk of being even more traumatizing than just walking in and immediately seeing my face. It's my hope that everyone would just leave my body alone and covered until the proper authorities would arrive to identify and remove it themselves.
Does this idea have a decent chance of working the way it's intended to, or is it likelier to make things worse instead?