couldn't do it

[trayansh]

I planned to CTB on 4th Dec my 27th birthday but i couldn't do it because my mom was excited about it and got me a birthday cake, I just couldn't do it. She is the only person I love and care about but I really wanna die too cause I don't see point in life. I guess I just gotta wait for her to die then do it atleast I wouldn't hurt her but idk if I will be able to hold on till then. I am stuck, I just don't wanna hurt her because she lived for me when she could have killed herself and I was just a year old, she lived 27 years cause of me and I can't do it to her.. wish i was a better son and not a disappointment

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It may be a long wait. I wanted to ctb over 25 years ago, but I knew my mom needed me, so I hung around. She passed a couple years ago, so here I am, tidying up loose ends and making plans.

 

[ShuttingDown]

I planned to CTB on 4th Dec my 27th birthday but i couldn't do it because my mom was excited about it and got me a birthday cake, I just couldn't do it. She is the only person I love and care about but I really wanna die too cause I don't see point in life. I guess I just gotta wait for her to die then do it atleast I wouldn't hurt her but idk if I will be able to hold on till then. I am stuck, I just don't wanna hurt her because she lived for me when she could have killed herself and I was just a year old, she lived 27 years cause of me and I can't do it to her.. wish i was a better son and not a disappointment

Same feelings bro, but ctb on birthday would have hurt ur mom the most imo