Venting corona virus is gonna be the reason i kill myself

[angelblade]

blah- i'm fucking stuck in my house with my mom and the only friend i have can't leave his house because of his mom.
i'm isolated.
i've been going through terrible depression episodes every single day.
i already relapsed after being 18 days clean last night but it was a pathetic relapse.
i saw a seem ripper and i couldn't resist.
i didn't even hit styro. it was pathetic but holy shit stabbing myself with it felt so good.

 

[meles_inoris]

I feel you. I bawled my eyes out four times today, and I haven't been this depressed in over a year and a half. I wish I had the balls to put an end to my suffering.

 

[noaccount]

The isolation is so much worse now. Gets pretty bad chronically too.
My life isn't driving me to self-injure so much these days, but as someone who's used that to cope with things over the years, I'm curious if the addiction/relapse framework helps you in making sense of things or making things more manageable? Wondering since it's never how I thought of it when I was doing it...

 

[angelblade]

mes today, and I haven't been this depressed in over a year and a half. I wish I had the balls to put an end to my suffering.
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The isolation is so much worse now. Gets pretty bad chronically too.
My life isn't driving me to self-injure so much these days, but as someone who's used that to cope with things over the years, I'm curious if the addiction/relapse framework helps you in making sense of things or making things more manageable? Wondering since it's never how I thought of it when I was doing it...

i personally think that it helps me manage better. i don't know how to explain it. it's like how a drug addict needed their addiction to function. i need my cutting to function, but i can manage without but i manage better with it.
i hope that made sense lol

 

[LMLN]

I feel the same, very isolated. I cannot see anyone I would normally visit due to the quarantine. And I cannot even get out to go to the office, everything is work from home due to the virus. I'm feeling very very depressed and alone. Want to ctb even more.

 

[Deformationalplagio]

People cant handle 3 weeks and im stuck deformed living my whole life in isolation. Wtf

 

[jgm63]

People cant handle 3 weeks and im stuck deformed living my whole life in isolation. Wtf

Well, each person is unique, and has different strengths, weaknesses, etc....

 

[Deformationalplagio]

Well, each person is unique, and has different strengths, weaknesses, etc....

Wanting to kill yourself because you are stuck for 3 weeks is just way overboard. Im getting the feeling a lot people on this forum are just here looking for attention no offence

 

[jgm63]

Wanting to kill yourself because you are stuck for 3 weeks is just way overboard. Im getting the feeling a lot people on this forum are just here looking for attention no offence

Some people may already be "fairly close to the edge", so when further things go wrong, it may "tip them over the edge" in mindset terms.....
Whether they truly mean it or are more venting could be debatable I suppose.
Only time would tell in that regard....
But please let's not ask them to "prove it" by questioning them....