Discussion Convinced my mom and therapist that it’s okay to want to die early via ctb

[MrDarkness]

So a few days ago I tried hang myself, I became very ill wanting to throw up, sore throat etc, I had to tell my mom the truth, I said to her, I'm not dying because of my family but how the world will end up in the future, she said a mother should never have to bury their kids, I had this long talk about philosophical beliefs on how death is the same no matter what, and how only so many people can fight on, I also re said this to my therapist and they agreed, suicide shouldn't be shamed but it is, people have reasons to die and their isn't any shame, I promised my mom to get help, I'll see if the future gets better, If it doesn't death it is, I'm not afraid of death.

Anyone had to deal with this or can relate? I can't really talk about this to anyone else

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Yeh I've had this talk with my mother, don't think she realises how serious I am about it though. You're the second person I've seen say their therapist knows and doesn't have any solutions for them...I don't know if it's a good thing they are so accepting or not! What other help are you going to try and get if you don't mind me asking? Wish you the best and hope your future does improve for you.

 

[MrDarkness]

Yeh I've had this talk with my mother, don't think she realises how serious I am about it though. You're the second person I've seen say their therapist knows and doesn't have any solutions for them...I don't know if it's a good thing they are so accepting or not! What other help are you going to try and get if you don't mind me asking? Wish you the best and hope your future does improve for you.

Their solution is trying to get me medicated and get me active, but they said as long as I'm not a danger to myself or others I'm fine to be let go. They said it's perfectly normal not to fear death and be fine with it. I'll see if the new medication works when I get it, but I'm still gonna buy sn incase it fails later on

Thanks for the kind wishes

 

[betternever2havbeen]

@MrDarkness I guess they can sort of agree if you're talking about suicide in a philosophical way as in one day you might do it but you're not actively suicidal. I'm guessing your therapist doesn't know about your attempt though?

I hope the meds work for you, it's good you're willing to try and get help.

 

[MrDarkness]

@MrDarkness I guess they can sort of agree if you're talking about suicide in a philosophical way as in one day you might do it but you're not actively suicidal. I'm guessing your therapist doesn't know about your attempt though?

I hope the meds work for you, it's good you're willing to try and get help.

They knew I tried ctb via a belt

 

[betternever2havbeen]

@MrDarkness Oh right I'm surprised because I would think if a therapist knew that you tried to do that only a few days ago they'd think you were a danger to yourself. Did you just tell them you're ok now and they accepted that? I hope you are feeling back to normal physically after your attempt.

 

[Huntfish34]

Dang damn, wow. That is Extremely accepting from them Imo. Everyone is different of course; I just wish my parents, doctor, heck... Whoever .. could accept such a thing.

I can already see it from a million miles away, they would All flip the Fckk Out and send me to a damn psych ward / inpatient program or something close. Heck Idk. - FML. .

Thanks for sharing this with us. Thoughts and prayers to you in whatever may happen. Godspeed. -

 

[MrDarkness]

@MrDarkness Oh right I'm surprised because I would think if a therapist knew that you tried to do that only a few days ago they'd think you were a danger to yourself. Did you just tell them you're ok now and they accepted that? I hope you are feeling back to normal physically after your attempt.

Yeah I told them I'm just waiting for my calling, and I said that either could be next month next year next 10 years etc. I'm very good at talking, but I repeated and said if I get put into a mental ward my thoughts and beliefs won't change. But yeah

Dang damn, wow. That is Extremely accepting from them Imo. Everyone is different of course; I just wish my parents, doctor, heck... Whoever .. could accept such a thing.

I can already see it from a million miles away, they would All flip the Fckk Out and send me to a damn psych ward / inpatient program or something close. Heck Idk. - FML. .

Thanks for sharing this with us. Thoughts and prayers to you in whatever may happen. Godspeed. -

True it depends on where you live and what you say, I had to be very careful on what I said, I avoided ever saying I'd do it again next week etc, I just I'm waiting for my calling. I wish some therapist were more open