Constant relapse

[thefoodispoison]

I just feel like this monkey is going to be on my back forever. I can knock it down for a little while but it's always gonna catch up.

I did TMS treatment, every day for six weeks, huge pain in the ass... But it helped. I felt better, so much better. Resilient, sometimes even joyful.

It's been less than two months since I finished, and here I am back on SS every day. I ordered SN right after the NYTimes article and even though I was feeling better once it was delivered, I still didn't tell anyone or throw it away. Now I just read a thread that apparently this brand from Russia isn't pure/quality and a lot of users have had failures with it. But I'm so down again that I don't even have the motivation to make a new plan right now.

 

[its-about-time]

I'd be interested to hear your experiences with TMS. It's been recommended to me but I haven't followed through. I can relate to the feeling that this stuff always comes back up, no matter what you do. It's rough to have it recurring and makes effort to feel better seem pointless.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering. I know that it can be dreadful when things just get worse. This life really can be so depressing. I wish you the best in whatever happens.