AN IDIOT'S END
Death to the World
- Feb 24, 2021
- 39
I have over 10 college algebra assignments that need to be done by Saturday. I managed to get my hands on some Adderall, but even that isn't helping. I just stare at my textbook and try to read a few words, or make sense of a few numbers, but it's like I never even learned English. Eventually I get distracted, and go waste my time somewhere else. A whole day gone by with no work done at all.
I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know why I took this class to begin with. I don't know why I really do anything. The "lost" feeling is very real. I'm kind of just wandering around. Metaphorically wandering, of course. I can't be damned to get out of bed.
It feels bad. I want to be successful, even if it's a much lower level of success than most would be happy with. I'm not even capable of the bare minimum.
What the heck do I do? Hire someone to take this class for me? What about all the other stuff I wanted to teach myself? I live in a prison.
I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know why I took this class to begin with. I don't know why I really do anything. The "lost" feeling is very real. I'm kind of just wandering around. Metaphorically wandering, of course. I can't be damned to get out of bed.
It feels bad. I want to be successful, even if it's a much lower level of success than most would be happy with. I'm not even capable of the bare minimum.
What the heck do I do? Hire someone to take this class for me? What about all the other stuff I wanted to teach myself? I live in a prison.