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LookingforAnswers

LookingforAnswers

Student
Mar 15, 2022
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Does anyone else have consistent brain pain. My ctb reason is depression but it seems my issues are much more related to how my brain feels rather than emotions.

Does anyone else feel the same and has anyone else found anything to relieve their brain pain?
 
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NotHuman

NotHuman

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Jul 8, 2018
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Part and parcel of my autism. It feels like I experienced a sensory overload at a very young age that was so intense that it blew a fuse. I live my life within an ongoing daydream, my brain constantly attempting to wrap itself around reality and failing miserably. While others can engage directly with the world and come away with something substantial and concrete, I struggle to gain access to vague impressions of snippets of things that I might be able to clumsily string together into things resembling coherent chains of thought forming a vapid model of a world that is bereft of color and depth.

Just writing this is agony; such a lengthy, drawn-out process between middleman cognitions compensating for defects peppered all over complicated by the need to describe sensations no human seems to actually experience. Anything that involves thought is exhausting, and I gravitate towards activities in which I can simply act without thinking.
 
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I can't do this anymore
Apr 9, 2022
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My dog. Sorry you suffering
 
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jimmy7754

jimmy7754

I just want to be myself again
Dec 15, 2021
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Driving Hell Yeah GIF by Pit Viper
 
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Graytaichi

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Feb 14, 2022
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Does anyone else have consistent brain pain. My ctb reason is depression but it seems my issues are much more related to how my brain feels rather than emotions.

Does anyone else feel the same and has anyone else found anything to relieve their brain pain?
Better go for an xray. My sis has a tumor at the stem. Its horrifying and sad.
 
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KlMeNw

KlMeNw

They killed me at seven, I just didn't know it- Me
Dec 15, 2021
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Part and parcel of my autism. It feels like I experienced a sensory overload at a very young age that was so intense that it blew a fuse. I live my life within an ongoing daydream, my brain constantly attempting to wrap itself around reality and failing miserably. While others can engage directly with the world and come away with something substantial and concrete, I struggle to gain access to vague impressions of snippets of things that I might be able to clumsily string together into things resembling coherent chains of thought forming a vapid model of a world that is bereft of color and depth.

Just writing this is agony; such a lengthy, drawn-out process between middleman cognitions compensating for defects peppered all over complicated by the need to describe sensations no human seems to actually experience. Anything that involves thought is exhausting, and I gravitate towards activities in which I can simply act without thinking.
Your description of your suffering rings very close to mine. I have been severely depressed continually for 25 years. I have lost the ability to comprehend reality as others do. I have forgotten what reality even is. My son is autistic like you and I fear your experience will be his as well. Life is unbelievably cruel to some my friend, God help us.
 
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