letdown
one day i am gonna grow wings
- Feb 22, 2024
- 16
i am a pretty young adult, but i am an ADULT. i am in a conservatorship. its hell. i have been IQ tested, i am definitely not intellectually disabled or anything. its all because of my "history of suicidality." honestly what the fuck. i am a person who deserves autonomy. i understand why someone with dementia or an intellectual disability might need a conservatorship. but i work a high paying job for my age, and i had not be hospitalized since living on my own. but when my previous foster guardian found out the job i was working, SHE FUCKING FILED A PETITION TO GET LEGAL CONTROL OVER ME AND MY MONEY.
i was very proud of myself for the money i made, i worked very hard for it. now all my money goes to her, she spend it on whatever the fuck she wants. she got my license taken away because if i have a car, that could be a threat to myself. what a joke. she treats me like a child, she makes me call her "mom" because she is housing me and giving me food.
I AM HOUSING HER AND GIVING HER FOOD. she survives off of MY income. she has the pantry and fridge locked up, not that i care too much about that (i have anorexia). but i want to go to med school, and if im not dead by then, i want to be better. can i even be a doctor with a conservatorship??? probably not.
i have tried to get out of this conservatorship, but her sister went to school with the judge. what can i even do??? all the doctors and therapists said this was a bad idea and wouldnt benefit me. but the judge doesnt listen. my court appointed advocate gave me a fucking build a bear for my birthday. i am an adult man, not some child in foster care anymore. its so infantilizing
i cant hire a lawyer or anything because i dont have access to my money. could i request a different judge or something?? every time i am interviewed by a social worker i tell them what is going on, and they think i am lying. i cant say anything in court, my conservator said she will tell them i threatened to ctb and get me sent to a residential again.
this should be illegal, no functioning adult should have to live like this. i was doing better when i was on my own, i wasnt getting hospitalized, i was very successful at work.
sorry for the rant lmao, i dont really get a chance to open up about this.
i was very proud of myself for the money i made, i worked very hard for it. now all my money goes to her, she spend it on whatever the fuck she wants. she got my license taken away because if i have a car, that could be a threat to myself. what a joke. she treats me like a child, she makes me call her "mom" because she is housing me and giving me food.
I AM HOUSING HER AND GIVING HER FOOD. she survives off of MY income. she has the pantry and fridge locked up, not that i care too much about that (i have anorexia). but i want to go to med school, and if im not dead by then, i want to be better. can i even be a doctor with a conservatorship??? probably not.
i have tried to get out of this conservatorship, but her sister went to school with the judge. what can i even do??? all the doctors and therapists said this was a bad idea and wouldnt benefit me. but the judge doesnt listen. my court appointed advocate gave me a fucking build a bear for my birthday. i am an adult man, not some child in foster care anymore. its so infantilizing
i cant hire a lawyer or anything because i dont have access to my money. could i request a different judge or something?? every time i am interviewed by a social worker i tell them what is going on, and they think i am lying. i cant say anything in court, my conservator said she will tell them i threatened to ctb and get me sent to a residential again.
this should be illegal, no functioning adult should have to live like this. i was doing better when i was on my own, i wasnt getting hospitalized, i was very successful at work.
sorry for the rant lmao, i dont really get a chance to open up about this.
