mushroommamma
Member
- Oct 4, 2023
- 15
Lately, I've been digging more and more into the chemistry behind N and while numerous searches online have yet to indicate any known current manufacturer still marketing the compound, I've been able to dig through and find the molecular structure and what exactly makes PB - PB (designated name beyond manufactures name N). I've been looking into all of this because of the scarcity and inconsistency it seems with sourcing it from somewhere and I'm just wondering if it's just as easy to obtain the raw material and make it so I can CTB. I'm not sure how easy it would be to obtain some of these chemicals considering with a few of them in the list, its similar to making C and I think that could raise some flags way faster. I'm just not sure if all the trouble to synthesize N is worth it considering the numerous other methods to CTB that could be done much easier.
For me, I feel like given the wildness of my life, it wouldn't be out the ordinary to have some weird science project looking ordeal going on whereas given my ungodly amount of overdose CTB attempts in the past, it would be much more present to my bf and friends if I began hording meds again or trying to save for other methods that would require some type of acquisition of things. Some of the "free" methods are just not ideal to me or from previous attempts, not something I want to try again and have fail as the recovery from it is pretty dumb, let alone if unsuccessful, could leave such an impairment that future CTB attempts or even gathering of anything becomes next to if not impossible.
Anyways, just kind of ranting and venting here because Idk if it's worth the headache and hassle, ya know?
For me, I feel like given the wildness of my life, it wouldn't be out the ordinary to have some weird science project looking ordeal going on whereas given my ungodly amount of overdose CTB attempts in the past, it would be much more present to my bf and friends if I began hording meds again or trying to save for other methods that would require some type of acquisition of things. Some of the "free" methods are just not ideal to me or from previous attempts, not something I want to try again and have fail as the recovery from it is pretty dumb, let alone if unsuccessful, could leave such an impairment that future CTB attempts or even gathering of anything becomes next to if not impossible.
Anyways, just kind of ranting and venting here because Idk if it's worth the headache and hassle, ya know?