Venting completely lost

[Henryk]

I'm in a situation where I suffer too much to stay alive and I'm too much of a coward to CTB. Honestly, I'm desperate because I don't want to live another second in this nightmare and I know that there is nothing or no one who can help me because it all depends on me. I have never hated myself so much in my life, I am a failure in love, in studies, at work. I just want to end it all as quickly as possible

 

[Yaffle]

I'm in a situation where I suffer too much to stay alive and I'm too much of a coward to CTB. Honestly, I'm desperate because I don't want to live another second in this nightmare and I know that there is nothing or no one who can help me because it all depends on me. I have never hated myself so much in my life, I am a failure in love, in studies, at work. I just want to end it all as quickly as possible

I'm sure many of us here empathise with you Henryk.

 

[oddetoad]

This place was rigged from the start to torture us. AI is in control of this hell hole !

 

[nothappy2behere]

just wanted to say I relate. I really hope we can find some peace eventually. you can vent / talk more about whatever's bothering if you want. i'm just here to continue the conversation and let you know you're not alone

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that it's torturous feeling so trapped here, it's so incredibly cruel to me how we cannot just easily choose to die in peace when we wish to. I hate how existence doesn't come with an permanent offswitch to instantly escape from all the suffering.

 

[hopeless08]

I'm in a situation where I suffer too much to stay alive and I'm too much of a coward to CTB. Honestly, I'm desperate because I don't want to live another second in this nightmare and I know that there is nothing or no one who can help me because it all depends on me. I have never hated myself so much in my life, I am a failure in love, in studies, at work. I just want to end it all as quickly as possible

Feel the same exact way I can't stand another second. The method I want to use is fentanyl and I would take it right now if I had it but don't know how to get it.I'm sorry you're going through this as well.

 

[iori011x3]

dw you aren't alone. i'm in the same situation. i keep flipflopping between hoping i could possible recover ?? but yeah it never works out and i look towards ctb. just like you, i'm fucking terrified.