Completely deflated and broken by the system

[Natbee]

Today was absolutely the worst day, met my new public psychiatrist under community care and he was completely oblivious to my care or anything that has happened with me. I'm mental health has been declining for months.

I walked into the appointment and he just didn't know anything, he reduced my medication without knowing the risks or anything. I contacted Lifeline who reported me to the police. Literally had police dogs, multiple police out looking for me. Instead of putting me on an EEA, they let my friends take me up to hospital who came to my aid. I get to hospital and they just don't care. I told them I'm going home and they said that's fine.

It's like the Hospital doesn't care, I'm someone that's known to them and they just don't care they know that I have access to sodium nitrite I have access to a large sum of medication.

I am at the point in my life where I just don't have the fight any more.

I am over it all.
No one cares what I do with my life anymore
I feel so defeated I just want to disappear forever.

 

[Forever Sleep]

This sounds so horrible. I'm so sorry you didn't get the support you deserve. It's so stupid that people are told to reach out as the solution to all their problems- when this is the result.