Pomegranate
"To die is gain."
- Jan 21, 2022
- 78
I melted down today after checking out my friends' activities on social media. I'm severely depressed and have OCD. I failed out of college, and I can never achieve the dreams I sought for so hard. And now, I'm left with comparing myself to friends and classmates all day long. It makes me feel worthless. While they're going about their lives, making new friends, and studying, I can barely focus on the TV. It's like there is this huge gulf between my life and theirs. I blocked all of them. I can't take it anymore.
It's making me think more seriously about ending my life. What's stopping me is the hope that future treatments might work on me. But I can't take feeling like this for the rest of my natural life. I'm in anguish.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. I appreciate it.
It's making me think more seriously about ending my life. What's stopping me is the hope that future treatments might work on me. But I can't take feeling like this for the rest of my natural life. I'm in anguish.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. I appreciate it.