strawberrydino
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- Sep 17, 2023
- 35
dk if this is the right place to post this but wanted to vent(i mean what else do i do on here- which does make me a bit afraid i might be dropping a lot of personal info but regardless).
so i have a partner now(pretty fantastic all things considered bc i like him and he likes me, mutual affection and the whole shebang). met him through a shared activity of which that activity has made a whole friendgrouo both he and i are a part of.
the thing if im like 99% solid that i am nonbinary, and ive been putting off this revelation because i really didnt want to change status quo. and i was afraid that its offputting and its not that important. that what really changes. except i feel a lot better when im not referred to as a girl or woman or girlfriend. im not your girl im not any of that. didnt really realize how uncomfortable it was till ppl referred to me as they/them.
its just weird ig. bc its not that group wont be accepting of they/them its just not that deep. like it feels like i hid something that is somehow fundamental to my living but also wont change anything. i wish i just knew my identity at the start.
obviously my partner has known me as she/her and a large portion of me wonders if that would change his perception of me. /his attraction towards me. not like we've been dating that long. but also i think he's open to nonbinary partners(?) but it feels like a switch in expectations to have a girlfriend become a theyfriend or whatever. and i just hate im making something so simple complicated.
i guess i just need some thoughts and advice. i know im not comfortable in the gender binary but its like do i do anything about it. i hate being unsure and i hate that i am this unsure about it. i makes me feel fake about everything. i hate my body and i hate that life feels so complicated. yet if i dont do anything the pressure will continue to build and i think my gender id adding to my overall anxiety.
so i have a partner now(pretty fantastic all things considered bc i like him and he likes me, mutual affection and the whole shebang). met him through a shared activity of which that activity has made a whole friendgrouo both he and i are a part of.
the thing if im like 99% solid that i am nonbinary, and ive been putting off this revelation because i really didnt want to change status quo. and i was afraid that its offputting and its not that important. that what really changes. except i feel a lot better when im not referred to as a girl or woman or girlfriend. im not your girl im not any of that. didnt really realize how uncomfortable it was till ppl referred to me as they/them.
its just weird ig. bc its not that group wont be accepting of they/them its just not that deep. like it feels like i hid something that is somehow fundamental to my living but also wont change anything. i wish i just knew my identity at the start.
obviously my partner has known me as she/her and a large portion of me wonders if that would change his perception of me. /his attraction towards me. not like we've been dating that long. but also i think he's open to nonbinary partners(?) but it feels like a switch in expectations to have a girlfriend become a theyfriend or whatever. and i just hate im making something so simple complicated.
i guess i just need some thoughts and advice. i know im not comfortable in the gender binary but its like do i do anything about it. i hate being unsure and i hate that i am this unsure about it. i makes me feel fake about everything. i hate my body and i hate that life feels so complicated. yet if i dont do anything the pressure will continue to build and i think my gender id adding to my overall anxiety.
