Anyone else experienced this? It's fucked up. Since I told people my dad has not said one word, nothing supportive just nothing, my mum used it as a reason for all the shit things that I've ever done.. and used it as a reason to exonerate herself from blame for all the shit things she's done. I realised yesterday.. my best friend is avoiding me!! I haven't seen her since I told her! A couple of awkward texts like she doesn't know what to say.
I was misdiagnosed with anxiety and depression, now been diagnosed bpd and before when it was anxiety/ depression it was like the acceptable face of mental illness. Everyone wanted to tell me they felt the same way. Any mental illness beyond that it seems people can't cope with me and run away scared :-(
I'm so sorry and my heart breaks for you. Mental illness runs on my mom's side of the family. My grandma had a nervous breakdown, and my mother and aunt have anxiety issues. I also suffer from anxiety and depression but that is not why I want to die? Not the full reason. The real reason is because I have Complex Regional Pain Syndrome which is the highest ranking pain condition in medical history. But when I told my family how extreme my OCD was at 15 and that I was struggling with something really bad they took it too lightly until they realized what was going on inside my mind was very real. Then they understood and we're totally supportive. Even my grandfather who is very old school and doesn't understand how people can be depressed. He wasn't a big help to my grandmother when this happened to her because he didn't get it. Now he is the most sensitive man I've ever met. More so than my own father was. He died from alcoholism. My poor grandmother passed away too during these 14 years of me fighting this disease.
But my heart breaks for you and every other person who is dealing with an illness...mental, physical or both like me and don't have people that they can't count on to love them for who they are no matter what flaws they have and aren't responsible for. I hope you know that this is not your fault. In no way what so ever. You didn't do this to yourself. Shame on them for not supporting you. They act like it's contagious or something and it makes me sick. I wish you peace and I hope that your family finally comes around and supports you. If you need to talk just PM me. I'll be here until Im not. Lots of love.
I guess some of them don't want to bear the responsibility of dealing with people who suffer mental illness.
I knew people who know that I have mental illness but they treat as if it didn't exist.
Can't blame others for not caring enough, they have their own lives to live.
You can't blame her parents for not caring enough? She is their child.
I've been trying to open up lately... In the best case people don't really know what to say, or they come up with the usual trite "it gets better" or "get some help/I'm glad you're getting help" stuff. Can't really blame them though.
My parents on the other hand are a bit cold and I'm not sure if it's something I've done and I deserve it (I'm having a bit of a breakdown) or if they are just not very supportive... I feel like they think I'm crazy-in-a-bad-way and it's making me feel even more alienated and lonely.
I'm sorry your family is like that... are you sure you best friend is really ignoring you though? Don't know about you but sometimes in this kind of situation I read too much into things, I guess because of fear of abandonment or something like that. Maybe she doesn't really know what to say, but that doesn't necessarily mean she is trying to avoid you.
This is NOT your fault and you DONT deserve what is happening to you so don't even think that ok? Even what it's hard not to. Just like my physical illnesses isn't my fault. You're being treated really shitty by the people who are supposed to love you unconditionally. Whether you're gay, straight, fat, thin, pretty, whatever. Don't lose your self worth in this fight. You make sure you know how much you matter in this life because o oy you have to live it.
