• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block.

St. Jimmy

St. Jimmy

Suicide commando that your mama talked about
May 3, 2020
251
I've been away, on and off for a little while now. Things got a little more busy on the outside. While they didn't necessarily distract me from the pain, it still gave me something to do; and dare I say, some things to look forward to.

However, I realize that I've now come full circle, back to that low. I am feeling as emotionally crippled as I did when all of this avalanched. Only, I'm not nearly as bedridden as I was.

All I want to do is cry, yet I don't want anyone to see it. So it's a real bitch having to be out and about as much as I am now. There are moments at work that I have to myself where I just let it all out, but I can't be too loud. My boss said to me in passing, "It's good to have you 'back.'" Oh dude, if only you knew. You may have to fill my position soon.

Anyway. It feels comfortable to be back on here again. Not sure how I'm feeling about the new layout, but at least we still have this place.
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: TheSoulless, Silvermorning, dontwantocareanymore and 1 other person
BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,359
Welcome back, sorry that you've had to come back under bad circumstances though. Sending love ❤️
 
  • Love
Reactions: St. Jimmy
St. Jimmy

St. Jimmy

Suicide commando that your mama talked about
May 3, 2020
251
Welcome back, sorry that you've had to come back under bad circumstances though. Sending love ❤
Thank you ♡ I've been coming here to keep in contact with a friend, but other than that, I haven't been active elsewhere in the forum.

I've been losing momentum with anything that I try to pick up lately, so hopefully I can keep up with it.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: BPD Barbie

Similar threads

wantingdignity
Replies
1
Views
147
Recovery
R. A.
R. A.
LifeIsASadist
Replies
3
Views
110
Suicide Discussion
Astronica
A
tears and vomit
Replies
20
Views
551
Suicide Discussion
mysideofthemountain
M
usernamesarehard
Replies
11
Views
453
Suicide Discussion
usernamesarehard
usernamesarehard
Upon a hanging Body
Replies
1
Views
106
Suicide Discussion
Upon a hanging Body
Upon a hanging Body