Combination of methods (nitrous oxide + Short Drop)

[FighterOfTheNightman]

A doctor once told me "you know a lot about suicide."

I said "Well I've done a lot of research."

Sodium nitrate seems promising but taking awhile to kill, and procuring all the crap seems like a hassle.. and taking the plunge to get it all into your system seems like it would be no easier than a short drop hanging.

Short drop hanging seems very reliable and quick, watching videos from the megathread resource of people actually losing consciousness.. The problem to me would seem to be having the gumption to go through with it, standing there with a noose around your neck. It is sad..

I want out though.

I have considered the nitrogen method and may still go with that, but I have experimented with many recreational drugs in my life.. and I have nearly passed out (not even nearly, I have passed out for a bit before) doing nitrous oxide recreationally.

You can order nitrous oxide as whipped cream chargers off amazon, or often at local head shops. A tank would be nice but I'm going for ease of procurement here, as I got a 2nd DUI, and I got a whole sad story before this, and I am just gonna be done here soon.

My idea is basically to have a noose around my neck, slung over a closed bathroom door in a hotel room, ala Chris Cornell..

Here is where it gets different.. Combine it with an exit bag..

Now, nitrous oxide is exhaled almost unchanged.. meaning..

If you were to put the noose firmly around your neck, get into a position where if you fall down, you will be suspended, maybe put the edges of the exit bag under the noose..

Then, you would take a hose, easily bought at a hardware store.. some rubber tubing.. slide it up the neck into the exit bag.. you would basically breathe out all your air..

Then I'd have some large bag or balloon filled with nitrous.. hook it to the hose.. it pumps in.. you get really really euphoric.. fall down when you start to pass out.. and hopefully it does the trick without you being too aware of what is happening.

Some of the details need hammered down but to me it sounds fairly foolproof.
Theoretically even if you weren't hanging right somehow, you'd still die from breathing the nitrous over and over.. The problem to me seems to be pumping enough into the bag.. but I think that could be accomplished with a hot glue gun, lengths of tubing, several punching bag balloons, and a valve of some sort..

 

[DoesANameEvenMatter]

I've actually also looked into death by nitrous oxide (also known as laughing gas). It's entirely possible to die by the nitrous oxide alone actually. However, you would need to ensure you have enough gas and that it is being constantly inhaled(be it through a bag over your head or a hospital mask). You can buy whipped cream chargers from amazon and use whipped cream dispensers in order to extract the gas from the containers. I am unsure about the exact ppm though. If you combine this with hanging, it should be greatly successful, although hanging by itself has a good chance of success.

 

[Stan]

I don't really know anything about either tbh, but I would say, the more complex you make an event, the more likely a mistake could be made. Could you consider trying the gas on its own first and then use the hanging as a backup plan?

 

[FighterOfTheNightman]

It sounds complicated but is really just hanging with a bag on your head and inhaling a bunch of gas..

That's less complicated to me than sourcing anti-emetics, taking them correctly, with apparently other stuff (I read inositol, tagamet, etc etc... fasting...)

I want it to be fast and not have a lot of fear involved.

I am fairly certain I can't bring myself to pull a trigger. I don't want to take something that takes awhile to make me pass out and I might start to feel shitty and panic waiting to die.

I want it to be something where I make the decision then do it.

I have a lot of experience with nitrous oxide. With the average exit bag instructions I believe you could pump 3-4 balloons worth of nitrous into one, then almost enjoy the ride.. theoretically.

I've heard nitrogen doesn't feel bad if I got time I might get a tank of that and just do it that way.

That being said, I just got a 2nd DUI. I have suffered from bipolar for year and years. I am sick of the ups an downs. I want it to be over. My gram died in Jan. My mom died in Feb. I just got a charge that will likely result in jail time. My first DUI was because of ambien I was prescribed. This one I was in a parked car, but it won't matter here in my state.

I just need to make this stop.. before any more fear and loathing.. any more pain.. I just need it to stop.. I need to figure this out.

I really think nitrous recreationally has been one of the only times in my life I kept taking hits until I physically couldnt and would pass out because it just felt so damn GOOD..

I figure I could drink a little, take a little phenibut, and that'd make me even more relaxed.. and hopefully I would just die.

God this all sucks why can't we have a button on some control panel to press to just die?

I've actually also looked into death by nitrous oxide (also known as laughing gas). It's entirely possible to die by the nitrous oxide alone actually. However, you would need to ensure you have enough gas and that it is being constantly inhaled(be it through a bag over your head or a hospital mask). You can buy whipped cream chargers from amazon and use whipped cream dispensers in order to extract the gas from the containers. I am unsure about the exact ppm though. If you combine this with hanging, it should be greatly successful, although hanging by itself has a good chance of success.

See I figure if enough stays in the bag from the initial filling it, you'd probably be cutting off your ability to breathe well anyway combining it with the short drop.. but then any you were breathing still would be nitrous.. any exhaled is also nitrous.. it is exhaled unchanged from what I know..
Theoretically I imagine just hitting nitrous until you could barely stand up, even without a proper exit bag, then trying the short drop, would be much easier than just going through with the short drop.

Survival instinct is the problem. I know from recreational use, my survival instinct can actually go away just from nitrous itself.

 

[Stan]

See I figure if enough stays in the bag from the initial filling it, you'd probably be cutting off your ability to breathe well anyway combining it with the short drop.. but then any you were breathing still would be nitrous.. any exhaled is also nitrous.. it is exhaled unchanged from what I know..

I hear what you are saying and see your logic, but when I was investigating the gas method the thing that sticks in my mind is the size of the tank and making sure you have regulator that can deliver 15 lpm

 

[FighterOfTheNightman]

Well, legal shit takes a bit to play out, and I got a little money to work with.. and a car I could sell..

I might end up just going with the nitrogen but honestly I don't think the short drop looks that bad, it would just be getting over the fear for me.. which I think nitrous could do even without an exit bag.. if I just did balloons in a row until I couldn't stand that might be enough.. might stifle some of the reflexes to fight too.

My main fear would be someone coming to check on noise from thrashing around..

Honestly at this point I might just chain myself to a rock and jump in the river.. I mean fuck I need to to be over, unpleasantness for a minute is almost inevitable.. a few hits of nitrous might help with unpleasantness for many methods though. to be honest, that might be a better lesson from this thread.

Nitrous is fairly easy to get in the US around here.. even buying a few cans of whipped cream could help with anxiety for someone deciding to try the hanging methods..

I get paid Friday I believe from the job I lost.. I figure if I get my car back, maybe I'll figure out how to die next week.

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[FighterOfTheNightman]

I guess I might have the money to just order a large amount of Tianeptine Sodium and then eat all of it at once.. and hopefully not throw it up..

God I just want out easily..