T
Thanatos123
Student
- Feb 18, 2020
- 153
First of all I wanted to thank everyone here for the help and support.
For those who don't know me, I've been suffering from a grievous disability that is affecting my vision and it's progressing to vision loss. Unfortunately doctors have no cure to prevent this or slow it down.
I'm about to quit my job for not being able to see properly. I've been planning to ctb for almost a year now and now my vision is getting noticeably worse over time. My loved ones know that I'm going to ctb and this is a big issue for them. I wanted them to know(big mistake) in order to be prepared and I finished writing my will for them – leaving them all of my savings.
I'm worried that they might force me into a psychiatric hospital without asking me. This is absolutely horrifying since I might be in a psychiatric hospital yet I don't suffer from any psychological disorders. I might go blind if they force me to stay there for long.
Anyhow, I have a plan to ctb sometime in March and I wanted to list the steps I'll take to avoid any mistakes.
I'll be using the CO method by utilizing a portable generator inside my car.
I'll be driving to a secluded area close to a forest and some farms.
Vents and holes will be taped, but one of the front windows will be a slightly open in order to test the CO using my meter that measures up to 10,000 PPM.
Foil/aluminum paper will be used to cover fabric and some interior parts of my car to prevent melting.
I will run the generator and I'll check the PPM every 15 – 20 minutes.
Once I hit the 10,000 PPM mark, put on a gas mask and ear plugs and I'll quickly step in and close the door and close the front window.
I'll take off the gas mask and take a deep breath and hopefully I'll be out.
A delayed email will be sent to my family two days after I ctb.
Did I miss anything?
A concern I have:
I'd like to buy the generator now and store it somewhere other than my house to prevent suspicion from others. Where can I store it? I've thought of public storage, but it could be a bit expensive even for a small space.
For those who don't know me, I've been suffering from a grievous disability that is affecting my vision and it's progressing to vision loss. Unfortunately doctors have no cure to prevent this or slow it down.
I'm about to quit my job for not being able to see properly. I've been planning to ctb for almost a year now and now my vision is getting noticeably worse over time. My loved ones know that I'm going to ctb and this is a big issue for them. I wanted them to know(big mistake) in order to be prepared and I finished writing my will for them – leaving them all of my savings.
I'm worried that they might force me into a psychiatric hospital without asking me. This is absolutely horrifying since I might be in a psychiatric hospital yet I don't suffer from any psychological disorders. I might go blind if they force me to stay there for long.
Anyhow, I have a plan to ctb sometime in March and I wanted to list the steps I'll take to avoid any mistakes.
I'll be using the CO method by utilizing a portable generator inside my car.
I'll be driving to a secluded area close to a forest and some farms.
Vents and holes will be taped, but one of the front windows will be a slightly open in order to test the CO using my meter that measures up to 10,000 PPM.
Foil/aluminum paper will be used to cover fabric and some interior parts of my car to prevent melting.
I will run the generator and I'll check the PPM every 15 – 20 minutes.
Once I hit the 10,000 PPM mark, put on a gas mask and ear plugs and I'll quickly step in and close the door and close the front window.
I'll take off the gas mask and take a deep breath and hopefully I'll be out.
A delayed email will be sent to my family two days after I ctb.
Did I miss anything?
A concern I have:
I'd like to buy the generator now and store it somewhere other than my house to prevent suspicion from others. Where can I store it? I've thought of public storage, but it could be a bit expensive even for a small space.
Last edited: