Clinging on by my fingertips

[Banquo501]

Things just aren't getting better, I feel like every day is now a constant battle where I have to fight not to catch the bus. The only reason I have for not going is how much it's going to upset my family, I honestly don't know how long I'm going to be able to carry on like this.

 

[TheSuicidalEccentric]

I am with you one hundred percent. My life in society under my current manmade identification is ruined, and I need to run away and get a new identity.

 

[Grandexit]

I understand. My resolve is slipping day by day too. It's such a surreal feeling.

 

[Deleted member 14386]

Yup, every day I wake up and just want to go back to the nothingness or even nightmares (yes I'm 28 and have nightmares lol). I instantly think "Oh fuck this again"

 

[theguineapigking]

That is also my main reason for being here still. My family. My parents and siblings would be so sad. But I can't handle this stupid society much longer. I want to go in my basement and hang myself now,not tomorrow! But I never do. I think I need to intoxicate myself and just DO IT.


I'm sympathetic for your situation. If you need to talk at all,I am here for you.

 

[TheSuicidalEccentric]

Yup, every day I wake up and just want to go back to the nothingness or even nightmares (yes I'm 28 and have nightmares lol). I instantly think "Oh fuck this again"

Very relatable.

 

[Banquo501]

Yup, every day I wake up and just want to go back to the nothingness or even nightmares (yes I'm 28 and have nightmares lol). I instantly think "Oh fuck this again"

Yeah, I feel exactly the same. Sleep is just so much nicer than life, even when I'm having a nightmare. I am always so disappointed when I wake up to another day.

 

[akrasia]

I love sleep as well, I wish I could sleep and never wake up :)

 

[Proto]

I feel so tired, everything i do seems so futile... It's 1 step forward 2 step backwards, unbelievable. The only reason i'm still here is for my family too. I'm very open about it but they want me to go on. My dad thinks i need a kick in the ass work in a forced labor camp for a year and then i would feel great afterwards. I'm a bit skeptical about that notion lol.