Climbing out of rock bottom

[kovkay]

I've been pretty dormant for the last two years, wasting my life away at rock bottom. Dropped out of uni, couldn't hold down a job, no ambition, no driving license, got fat. Decided to finally do something about it and been steadily clawing my way out of it. Little by little, I started to improve my life. I started a college program in the trades, took driving lessons again, started counting calories, developed a skin care routine, finally started flossing.

But sometimes, I have difficulty with it. I have troubles in one of my courses - I am completely incompetent with one of the processes we have to use, I think I might actually get a zero on the project. I went over my calorie goal a couple of times. It's minor things in the grand scheme of things. I know recovery isn't linear. But it's just so tempting to give up and stop trying altogether.

I look back at everything I'm doing to improve and I feel hopeful about the future. I guess I just need a little encouragement to keep at it.

 

[goodbyebunny]

If encouragement is what you need, then that's what you'll get! You are taking all these great steps, and you even have hope your future. That's really beautiful. I hope you're proud of every step forward you're taking, because I'm proud of you.

I'm also in school right now, and I'm barely holding on. I'm pursuing a degree that I like and want, but am hopelessly lacking in talent for. I don't know where that will lead me. Thanks for giving me hope that even though somebody can drop out of school and hit rock bottom, they can find a way to survive and rebuild.

 

[kovkay]

Lacking talent for something you want to do can be so frustrating. I see people doing stuff with such ease while I'm over here struggling despite putting in effort. It doesn't bother me though. I know as long as I enjoy what I'm doing and don't give up - I'm bound to get it eventually. Even if it takes longer to master, I'm sure I can be decent at it... perhaps far from the best, but decent enough to find employment in the field.

Imo, it's better to do something you enjoy but are bad at, than something that you're good at which makes you miserable. Best of luck to you!

 

[timf]

You are to be commended for starting to tackle new things. It is likely that when one tries new things, some of them won't be a good fit. For example, you might try to learn to play the card game bridge, you might try to take a stab at making pottery, and you might try to see if you are any good at public speaking by joining Toastmasters. In the process, you may discover that you are not good any all three, but you enjoy playing bridge so you stick with that and slowly get better.

The more you experiment, the greater the odds are that you will find your way to the things you like to do and draw you into social connections with others. I rememebr a TV program that has a scene where a choir direct and choir were rehearsing. One of the choir members got mad and walked off declaring that she did not want to associate with "amateurs". The choir director told the rest that the word "amateur" was derived from the Latin and had meant people who did something for the love (amicus) of it. In away enjoyment comes more from the love of something above the skill. Skill can always improve up to the level of our individual ability. However, our love of something can feed the soul.

I like singing, however I know how bad my voice is. I refrain from singing around others to spare them. However, alone in the car, I cut loose at a loud volume. You just need to find that which you can "sing" about.

 

[goodbyebunny]

Yes I agree with you completely. Better to pursue a passion,

You are to be commended for starting to tackle new things. It is likely that when one tries new things, some of them won't be a good fit. For example, you might try to learn to play the card game bridge, you might try to take a stab at making pottery, and you might try to see if you are any good at public speaking by joining Toastmasters. In the process, you may discover that you are not good any all three, but you enjoy playing bridge so you stick with that and slowly get better.

The more you experiment, the greater the odds are that you will find your way to the things you like to do and draw you into social connections with others. I rememebr a TV program that has a scene where a choir direct and choir were rehearsing. One of the choir members got mad and walked off declaring that she did not want to associate with "amateurs". The choir director told the rest that the word "amateur" was derived from the Latin and had meant people who did something for the love (amicus) of it. In away enjoyment comes more from the love of something above the skill. Skill can always improve up to the level of our individual ability. However, our love of something can feed the soul.

I like singing, however I know how bad my voice is. I refrain from singing around others to spare them. However, alone in the car, I cut loose at a loud volume. You just need to find that which you can "sing" about.

Beautiful comment. I agree completely.

Also Kovkay, hope you're hanging on strong today as well.