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LastLook

Member
Apr 27, 2022
17
Just wanna vent because i have no one to talk to.

I have chronic pain and its getting worse lately. My sleep pattern is so erratic because of this. My body is too afraid to fall asleep. In the past week, i had 2 straight sleeps of dreaming that im dying because chest pain is worse when im sleep, the first one is someone stabbed me in my chest and the second dream is my throat cut off where i also experience pain when im awake. Im just too numb to experience it as a nightmare. Its just a dream of dying in pain.
 
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LoiteringClouds

LoiteringClouds

Tempus fugit
Feb 7, 2023
3,796
Hello @LastLook,
I'm so sorry that you're enduring terrible chronic pain - and you even dream about it.
I sometimes have really terrible gum pain, which makes me moan and groan at it, and my dentist can't do anything to alleviate it. I even lost a tooth.
I can't think anything but alleviating my pain when it is flaring up, but it's not permanent so I can tolerate it.
I don't have any chronic pain so I can only imagine, but I think it's inhumane - even temporary one is crippling for me, so how can I endure relentless pain?

I saw you on another thread and you said you believe in a compassionate and just God.
May God bless you 🙏
And I believe there definitely is some gain when you fight against your pain 💙💛
(Sorry If I misunderstood you.)
 
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Lavander 230

Lavander 230

Student
Mar 3, 2023
109
Just use some opioids and the pain will go away.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,250
That sounds so horrible what you have to endure, it's such a hellish existence where there's all this endless suffering, it disgusts me how the decaying flesh prison that is the human body can torture people too much.
 
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LastLook

Member
Apr 27, 2022
17
I never tried any drugs. And i think that needs doctor's prescription. Wish i could get some.
That sounds so horrible what you have to endure, it's such a hellish existence where there's all this endless suffering, it disgusts me how the decaying flesh prison that is the human body can torture people too much.
Thats true. I imagine everyone will still have the same fate. Its much worse during the old days because they don't have access to sedative anesthetic drugs. I just hope everyone has the same resources in this unfair world.
Hello @LastLook,
I'm so sorry that you're enduring terrible chronic pain - and you even dream about it.
I sometimes have really terrible gum pain, which makes me moan and groan at it, and my dentist can't do anything to alleviate it. I even lost a tooth.
I can't think anything but alleviating my pain when it is flaring up, but it's not permanent so I can tolerate it.
I don't have any chronic pain so I can only imagine, but I think it's inhumane - even temporary one is crippling for me, so how can I endure relentless pain?

I saw you on another thread and you said you believe in a compassionate and just God.
May God bless you 🙏
And I believe there definitely is some gain when you fight against your pain 💙💛
(Sorry If I misunderstood you.)
Thank you. I appreciate your kind words. I hope you feel better managing your pain too.
 
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Iwashereonce

Iwashereonce

Specialist
Apr 25, 2019
350
I can relate, ive been having chronic pain for 7 years but most of the time it was "manageable" since end of last year tho it got much worse, besides my chronic back pain and ibs, i got an uti that i took antibiotics for that ruined my already sensitive gut even more, since then i have anxiety, insomnia, thoraccic outlet syndrome, a condition that radiates nerve pain from your neck into your hands and also affects in other ways, like occipital headaches, scapular pain, terrible thing to have, i dont know how im hanging on
 
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LittleJem

Visionary
Jul 3, 2019
2,666
see if you can get Kratom online. It might help you….I tried it for depression but some find it helpful for pain. Read about tolerance breaks and avoiding addiction cos it is an opioid.
 

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