Venting Christmas= worst time of year

[savoytruffle]

had another fight with my mum, possibly may be getting kicked out soon i don't know how much more she can take of me. ruined her christmas plans. gonna take some propranolol tramadol & xanax hopefully get knocked out for a few hours, it's not good enough to do anything more. i can barely stay awake these days i just want to lie in bed forever

i packed a knapsack full of stuff yesterday. i had an idea of boarding a bus to somewhere far, hanging out for a while and doing partial in the woods so im not found quickly. never going to do it in my room i dont ever want her to find me like that, even locking the door and taping a paper wont stop her

i secretly bought some weed so i can depersonalize again and make it easier. i finally found the carotid artery or whatever it is, no gross uncomfortable head pressure finally

 

[until death]

I hate Christmas

 

[SMmetalhead36]

I hate Christmas

Same here.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be dreadful what you are going through, it's really understandable just wishing to be gone, but anyway I wish you the best in your plans.

 

[Ligottian]

Anyone here besides me spending Christmas all alone?

 

[notherenotnow]

I hate christmas. I hate winter. I hate having to see the people I despise so much. I hate being forced into talking about politics. I hate being asked questions. I really damn hope we, as a society, stop celebrating christmas. it's such a useless time of the year. I wish you luck.