Horrors Lazuli
Member
- Oct 12, 2019
- 44
My life has once again taken a turn for the worse: my living situation became worse overnight last Sunday and I'm living with my father now who wants to leave the state or country as soon as he or his girlfriend get a job offer outside California. I'm 26 years old and due to a physical disability, cerebral palsy, and a mood disorder, bipolar disorder, I had been living with my paternal grandparents who kicked me out after a terrible family fight on Father's Day.
Opportunities and chances to find stability for my unique set of circumstances are fading quickly. I haven't been able to finish my degree in college yet —have been at it for eight years— and I was planning to take a leave of absence to regroup and give it one more try. Now the possibility of regrouping is gone. Today I allowed myself to decide to end myself not only due what I discussed above, but for a variety of reasons and impediments. I am trying to find and accomplish the following:
Are there any words of wisdom you guys can give me? I'll check back in the morning.
Opportunities and chances to find stability for my unique set of circumstances are fading quickly. I haven't been able to finish my degree in college yet —have been at it for eight years— and I was planning to take a leave of absence to regroup and give it one more try. Now the possibility of regrouping is gone. Today I allowed myself to decide to end myself not only due what I discussed above, but for a variety of reasons and impediments. I am trying to find and accomplish the following:
- I will allow myself to enjoy the remaining months of housing I have left.
- I will likely travel to see places I need to see before I CTB.
- I need to talk to someone here who can be kind enough to walk me through securing a method. Yes, I am reading the wealth of information found on this forum as well. I just need another human who won't try to have me forcefully hospitalized.
Are there any words of wisdom you guys can give me? I'll check back in the morning.