Anything 'positive', makes me feel much worse, there is nothing to be happy about in a world that is as horrible as this. Life is only suffering after all. It would be wrong to smile when someone else in the world is experiencing so much pain at the same time. People with loud voices can be very annoying, I hate the sound of laughing in particular. I cannot stand noise in general, at least when I am dead I will not have to hear or experience anything ever again.