Venting Cheerful people make me sick

[LostMyWill]

Whenever I go to college and see people around being cheerful, having small talk and being able to say whatever they want while staying happy makes me feel sick to the core. If I said what I had on my mind, I'd probably get gaslighted, alienated and maybe even sent to a mental asylum. To top it of, sometimes I hear them talking about how they want to have children all while disregarding the fact that they're basically playing the lottery with someone's life, no guarantee that they'll even lead a happy fulfilling life, just wishful thinking on their part. It's almost like I have a grudge against the average person, even if it's undeserved.

 

[fatefulstillness]

Seeing this in college makes me dissociate heavily. That's why I always bring something to read with me and I go straight to the library. The few interesting people I've met didn't come from forced small talk, so I try to avoid it when possible.

It's nice of you to say that maybe that grudge is undeserved, we certainly can't judge people correctly by these isolated behaviors. I try to remember that most of them don't know what they're doing and probably just want to feel comfortable somewhere, so I let them be. But yes, it's still very uncomfortable to watch.

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings are understandable. I believe that people who want children in a world that is as cruel as this must be delusional. The way I see it, if you never exist, you never suffer. We were all perfectly fine not existing until we were forced to live. Cheerful people do annoy me. To me there is nothing to be happy about in a world that is as horrible as this.

 

[its-about-time]

Happy people in general annoy me. Especially people who haven't suffered trauma, mental illness, or physical ailment. Good for them, but also fuck them. I can't comprehend being so care free and happy. It seems like a myth but many people live that way. I guess I just choose to surround myself with people who know significant suffering though. I relate more.

 

[sealbabies]

I know sometimes I put on a "happy" facade. Mainly because I don't want anyone to invade or know my true feelings for obvious reasons.

 

[NothingElseMatters]

loved your profile picture, seems so sweet and gentle.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I know I'm jealous of them. I use to be happier even with acne skin condition before sexual activity. Everything went downhill with sex as it brought out my unresolved feelings

 

[lili]

I tend to smile a lot. I don't really know why to be honest. I hate how much I smile.

People even ask me sometimes and make fun of how much I smile. They make fun that my head is in the clouds. I don't know why I do it it just happens. I definitely don't feel happy right now. I also tend to get manic ocasionally and the more I smile the more I hate myself internally.

 

[waitingforrest]

It feels like they are in a joke that I can't understand. How can people be so carefree in a world like this?

Homura did nothing wrong.