Cheap Suicide Methods?

[A_Breath_Away]

Hoping people will chime in.

Let's get the obvious out of the way first: I know hanging is by FAR the cheapest/easiest route. It requires next to nothing to accomplish, other than good ligature and a will to die. But for us squeamish-types (look, there's no judgement. I've been trying to avoid this method at all costs myself) what are some other more cheap, reliable methods?

I should probably go into more detail on some things I've tried: Chemical injestion, Cutting, Self-Strangulation, all duds FR. Didn't even come close. I like the idea of cutting in general as it releases endorphins and I guess it just "feels" good, but it is one of the most worthless methods out there. I slit both of my fucking arms and it barely affected me. I guess I felt tired but that was pretty much it and I think that was more from adrenaline than anything. You would literally have to be a surgeon to make that shit work. And you'd need a pretty good dose of painkillers cuz those arteries are deep in there. You'd have more luck with water-intoxication which I've also considered.

So far my only least painful alternatives I've found is inert gas and carbon monoxide, which I'm looking into. My main issue is that I'm surrounded by my "family". I put that in quotes because they feel less like loved ones and more like prison wardens, making sure I don't try anything stupid. If they loved me they would leave me alone and let me die. It's not like they actually care, more that they don't want to feel implicated in my death. So, at this point I don't care if they find my body. I just don't wanna be hospitalized.

Now I'm sure there's things you can ingest that WILL do the job given decent amounts. I mean anything is fatal given enough of it. But is it practical? And do you really wanna deal with the side effects of it? Like others have said, most OTC drugs are a non-method. They don't work. Pure and simple. If they did, they wouldn't be available to the public like that. I've drank bleach which did absolutely fuck all and I drank half the damn bottle. Gasoline will just make you sick. You'd need a lot of it and it's a pretty shitty way to go.

I really like the idea of SN (sodium nitrite), but my problem is cost. While not super-expensive, it is when you're flat-ass broke. And the whole regimen of needing to fast, taking certain drugs around a schedule, and needing an pretty powerful antiemetic, it almost seems like a science-experiment and limits its availability somewhat. Like as good as it sounds, it just seems less and less practical to me. Like it's so outside my means of obtaining it.

SO, I think I covered some of the things I've thought up. I'd like to know other people's opinions. Their ideas. Things they've tried. Whether it worked or not. How close they came. And just overall experiences. Thank you!

 

[raybd]

Cheapest option. Strictly a US special. Suicide-by-cop. Find a cop - costs nothing. Rile him up - costs nothing. Get shot - zero $.
You can research trigger-happy cops and precincts at a library for free.
To hang, you may need to buy a good rope.
Here, the cop comes with the supplies.
You only need give him sufficient cause.
Check if you can if no body cams or dash cams are there. Makes it more likely.

 

[black money boys]

Cheapest option. Strictly a US special. Suicide-by-cop. Find a cop - costs nothing. Rile him up - costs nothing. Get shot - zero $.

until you get shot just once and the ambulance gets you and you get medical bills and you're put in prison which makes your already hellish life even worse

 

[A_Breath_Away]

Cheapest option. Strictly a US special. Suicide-by-cop. Find a cop - costs nothing. Rile him up - costs nothing. Get shot - zero $.
You can research trigger-happy cops and precincts at a library for free.
To hang, you may need to buy a good rope.
Here, the cop comes with the supplies.
You only need give him sufficient cause.
Check if you can if no body cams or dash cams are there. Makes it more likely.

Thought about it. Hell, I've considered holding up a convenience store. But I'd rather not scare a shit-ton of people, y'know? Plus, the likey-hood of failing and jail-time makes it less appealing.

 

[raybd]

until you get shot just once and the ambulance gets you and you get medical bills and you're put in prison which makes your already hellish life even worse

that's why you research and get a cop and precinct that WILL kill you.... shoot first, talk later. Back where I lived in the NE US, there was this one precinct where all the killer cops were. Was a tough area. Just 3 miles east, suburbia started - cops would give you tea and call counseling services. Was one of the upscale neighborhoods.
I will tell you how I'd look. Usually, the better paying precincts/suburbs/areas get the pick of the lot from the police academy. You can see their salary and recruiting details online in many states. These better picks also tend to be more emotionally stable and less trigger-happy. The less stable, barely made it out of the academy types who are more likely to shoot are usually in the tougher neighborhoods. Got to pick your spot well for this to work.

 

[A_Breath_Away]

that's why you research and get a cop and precinct that WILL kill you.... shoot first, talk later. Back where I lived in the NE US, there was this one precinct where all the killer cops were. Was a tough area. Just 3 miles east, suburbia started - cops would give you tea and call counseling services. Was one of the upscale neighborhoods.

I'll keep it in my backpocket. For safe-keeping. Who knows? Transportation is an issue here as well. And if I DO anything, especially anything illegal, there's a good chance I'll spend the rest of my life in a psyche-ward. Which in my opinion is a fate worse than death.

 

[StoneCellaiver]

Jumping's always up there, just need to find a good location. Sad that so many methods are so pricey.

 

[A_Breath_Away]

Jumping's always up there, just need to find a good location. Sad that so many methods are so pricey.

Simple and to the point. Guaranteed lethal. But again, like with hanging, super-duper squeamish. Like I'll admit I'm sort of a coward when it comes to SI. That's why Full-Suspension Hanging has been sitting there on the back burner, glaring at me. I know I could end it.

Like I know I could end it. Like right now if I wanted. Stick a fork in a light-socket. Shoot myself in the mouth. But I just don't want my death to be so traumatic. I wish there was something I could OD on, so that I could just die watching TV or something. Out like a light, y'know? That's why Carbon Monoxide sounds so appealing. But I can't just start a small fire in my house. I live with other people. Anything I do is going to attract attention.

 

[rayyy]

im thinking of jumping, seems like a cool way to CTB, there is a 15 story building close where i live but im still scared that its not enough and ill end up a vegetable

 

[A_Breath_Away]

im thinking of jumping, seems like a cool way to CTB, there is a 15 story building close where i live but im still scared that its not enough and ill end up a vegetable

Y'all are so much braver than I am. Like it sort of makes me mad how pathetic I am. I'd be terrfied of broken-bones and just pain tbh.
Like I have access to a firearm and can't manage to actually do it.

And this is no offense to people who choose not to go down that path. It's just that I have a way out. It's metaphorically staring me in the face but I just can't seem to pull the trigger.

Super-duper frustrating. I feel at some point, I'm just gonna have to buck up and do it. Like I'll reach a limit where I'll be compelled to.

 

[raybd]

Y'all are so much braver than I am. Like it sort of makes me mad how pathetic I am. I'd be terrfied of broken-bones and just pain tbh.
Like I have access to a firearm and can't manage to actually do it.

And this is no offense to people who choose not to go down that path. It's just that I have a way out. It's metaphorically staring me in the face but I just can't seem to pull the trigger.

Super-duper frustrating. I feel at some point, I'm just gonna have to buck up and do it. Like I'll reach a limit where I'll be compelled to.

Get stoned then jump