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ErnestPobjoy
Member
- May 9, 2021
- 18
I've noticed that there are some younger people on this website. I hate to give advice to people and I also don't want to sound like a boring, old man describing his own youth but I just want to give my honest version of what happened when I was younger and why I am so glad that I didn't act on suicidal thoughts at that time of my life.
I've just had my 47th birthday. I was around 13 when things started to get difficult in life with anxiety and depression. Sure, throughout my teenage years and into my twenties, I was often in great pain, life seemed unbearable and I experienced suicidal thoughts. At the age of 28, things changed for me, there was a dramatic change. It was like I turned into another person. Life became amazing and it really wasn't in a way in which I expected. It remained amazing, really interesting and exciting for many years. Another change happened when I was 43 and I started to slow down but life was still intersting for a couple of years. The last 18 months have been hell.
If I had killed myself during those teenage years or in my early twenties, then I would never have experienced those amazing highs from the age of 28. That was magic, that was something else. I look back and I realise that I had to go through what I did as a teenager and in my 20s in order to be able to experience those highs later in life. It's a long story but yeah, life can be hard and cruel at times, I didn't understand why life had to be so hard for me when I was younger and it was only later that I realised why.
Just my story for the record.
I've just had my 47th birthday. I was around 13 when things started to get difficult in life with anxiety and depression. Sure, throughout my teenage years and into my twenties, I was often in great pain, life seemed unbearable and I experienced suicidal thoughts. At the age of 28, things changed for me, there was a dramatic change. It was like I turned into another person. Life became amazing and it really wasn't in a way in which I expected. It remained amazing, really interesting and exciting for many years. Another change happened when I was 43 and I started to slow down but life was still intersting for a couple of years. The last 18 months have been hell.
If I had killed myself during those teenage years or in my early twenties, then I would never have experienced those amazing highs from the age of 28. That was magic, that was something else. I look back and I realise that I had to go through what I did as a teenager and in my 20s in order to be able to experience those highs later in life. It's a long story but yeah, life can be hard and cruel at times, I didn't understand why life had to be so hard for me when I was younger and it was only later that I realised why.
Just my story for the record.