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AdamOndiAhman
dreaming on kolob
- Feb 8, 2024
- 56
i need to ctb asap. i cant stand this body any more. i can't stand what i see staring back at me in the mirror. i need to go. im sorry to my family that i let down. im sorry to my father who put so much time and effort into raising and caring for me. im going to ctb on my birthday coming up. i just failed overall. im so brain-dead from so much despair in my mind that i just cant begin to explain how much i fucked up. i just don't deserve to exist anymore. i was going to go out by co, but im too desperate to wait until i get all the materials necessary, so i changed my mind to partial hanging. im going on holiday with my father tomorrow and coming back a day before my birthday. i think this time away with my father is just a way of saying sorry and goodbye to him discreetly.
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