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Hi.

Im really desperate and in an extremely dangerous situation. I need advice, but my method is extremely painful and I doubt Id succeed and make myself do it.
I cant believe I got into the situation I am now in.

Is acetic acid CH3COOH a certain way to go?
It is essence of vinegar 80%. About 250g if Im not mistaken. Possibly a small glass.

What would happen?

How long would it take?

Can I damage my eyes if I ingest it and dont die?

What other permanent damage can I cause?

Also, I am not sure if all of it is pure 80% cuz it could have been dilluted by someone, really dilluted.
How much would I need and how much percent for it to work?
Some of it went on my skin, I dont think it hurt me.
It does have a strong smell but nth too unbearable, tho it is strong.
Any way to check how strong it is?


I really really need help..
There is no way out.
I never believed in god, but this is just beyond any suffering a human can and should bear.
Send me positive vibes.

I dont want to get into too much detail but the near future could be agonizing.
I am suffering such an injustice.
Do as much good as you can. It is all we have and I truly see what that means now.
Please, advise me, tho I doubt I will be set free.
It would be agony live.
 
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littlelady774

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Don't drink that- it will likely be very agonizing. I've worked with formic acid before and just the fumes are irritating.

If I were you, I'd find another method
 
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TiredHorse

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This sounds like a method almost certain to fail you, and to do so in a very painful, permanently life-changing way.

Don't do it. You'd only be making your situation worse.
 
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whilst those exceeding 12% result in corrosive and systemic effects of skin loss, damage to mucosal membranes, haemolysis, renal failure, acidosis, shock and ultimately death

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5810867/

All patients ingested a minimum of 70% concentration, with volumes ranging from 10 to 250 ml (60 ml median). The most frequently observed complications included haemolysis (55%), renal failure (35%) and pneumonia (27%). Overall mortality was reported as 21%, but in those patients who ingested >100 ml, this almost doubled, to 40%. This significant increase is almost certainly due to the greater severity of gastrointestinal (GI) damage and subsequent greater morbidity associated with higher volumes of acid ingestion.
 
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Johnnythefox

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Nov 11, 2018
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Pure acetic acid will seriously burn you if it contacts the skin or eyes, but when diluted to 5% with water becomes a tasty condiment. So vinegar is dilute acetic acid.
 
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Thanks for the reply. Every one of you..
How long do you think were talking about?

What other way?
I have some antipsychotics at hand I think.
How many do I need and what is the time/process.
I cant afford being asleep for too long.
At all actually...

Jumping from the third floor.?

Cutting carotid arteries(nth sharp enough)

Cant rly hang myself. No way of rly making a noose. And i only have a doorknob.

I think the acid is my only option.
Others may reply to this part too :)

ALSO
If I ingest orally should it hurt my eyes?

Don't drink that- it will likely be very agonizing. I've worked with formic acid before and just the fumes are irritating.

If I were you, I'd find another method
 
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Maybe you should take a step back instead of acting impulsively before you really fuck yourself up and spend months in a ward cursing your decision. Instead peruse the threads on here of different methods and go out in confidence rather than grasping at straws for a method.
 
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Pure acetic acid will seriously burn you if it contacts the skin or eyes, but when diluted to 5% with water becomes a tasty condiment. So vinegar is dilute acetic acid.
Thx for the reply.
That is what I thought.
Is there any way of knowing how diluted/strong it is?
If I inget orally should it hurt me eyes?
 
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littlelady774

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Maybe you should take a step back instead of acting impulsively before you really fuck yourself up and spend months in a ward cursing your decision. Instead peruse the threads on here of different methods and go out in confidence rather than grasping at straws for a method.
I second this.
You need to put some thought into things before you wind up much worse off
 
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Thx for the reply.
That is what I thought.
Is there any way of knowing how diluted/strong it is?
If I inget orally should it hurt me eyes?
I'm sorry I don't know, I just looked on Google.
I would say forget about this as a method as you could end up in a worse state.
 
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Maybe you should take a step back instead of acting impulsively before you really fuck yourself up and spend months in a ward cursing your decision. Instead peruse the threads on here of different methods and go out in confidence rather than grasping at straws for a method.
That is good advice, but my situation is such..
I have thought about other methods more thoroughly but could not see ath working.
I am truly desperate now.
Do you have any suggestions you think best from your experience. Time is of essence.
Thanks
 
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TiredHorse

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Do you have any suggestions you think best from your experience. Time is of essence.
I don't think any of us know your situation or your available resources well enough to suggest methods. That you have access to 80% acetic acid implies you may have access to more effective/less unpleasant methods.
 
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We're all desperate, and on borrowed time, but we also plan things out completely so we don't need to do a repeat or end up in worse shape than we are in now. Only other method which is quick and surefire is getting a gun.
 
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Do you guys have any suggestions?
I have managed to do some research but not from this forum.
As time is of essence, would it be too much to ask of you to share your best methods?
 
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I don't think any of us know your situation or your available resources well enough to suggest methods. That you have access to 80% acetic acid implies you may have access to more effective/less unpleasant methods.
Not quite.
I managed to find it at home as my mother uses it for making pickles.

I literally cant go far from home.
What about a large amount of antipsychotics?

Any ways to hsng myself w a scarf and doorknob?
How to tie the noose? I saw that one thread but i still dont grasp gow to tie the noose.

You dont know my situation but this ids urgent. It is truly borrowed time.
 
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That is good advice, but my situation is such..
I have thought about other methods more thoroughly but could not see ath working.
I am truly desperate now.
Do you have any suggestions you think best from your experience. Time is of essence.
Thanks

Think hanging is your best option. Its silent if you hang from the ceiling, and you die fast.
But dont let anyone find you during 15 - 20 minutes, if so you can get brain damage.
 
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I don't know your situation, but if you're in immediate danger or if someone is after you, i'd try to run away and hide
Or call the police and ctb later
 
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I'm sorry I don't know, I just looked on Google.
I would say forget about this as a method as you could end up in a worse state.
I know its not smart...
I love your quote by Orwell.
Im in denia
Think hanging is your best option. Its silent if you hang from the ceiling, and you die fast.
But dont let anyone find you during 15 - 20 minutes, if so you can get brain damage.
Thank you.
What to hang myself with?
How to tie a noose?
I only have a doorknob
 
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Thanks for the reply. Every one of you..
How long do you think were talking about?

What other way?
I have some antipsychotics at hand I think.
How many do I need and what is the time/process.
I cant afford being asleep for too long.
At all actually...

Jumping from the third floor.?

Cutting carotid arteries(nth sharp enough)

Cant rly hang myself. No way of rly making a noose. And i only have a doorknob.

I think the acid is my only option.
Others may reply to this part too :)

ALSO
If I ingest orally should it hurt my eyes?

SN method might be for you if you have access to a car or if you can wait for 5-6 days and have the ability to order online
 
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Stillnotsure

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Thx for the reply.
That is what I thought.
Is there any way of knowing how diluted/strong it is?
If I inget orally should it hurt me eyes?

You are so worried about your eyes but that's not what you should be worried about. Drinking this will destroy you're esophagus (food tube) and stomach. The esophagus will scar and stricture (close up) causing the need for a feeding tube and surgeries to dilate the esophagus with a balloon. You'll live but only be adding to an already miserable existence. Not good.

Overdosing on your antipsychotic medication is nearly impossible to take a fatal dose, you'll just get the worst cramping, diarrhea, and vomiting of your life and end up in the hospital.

Cutting blood vessels through your skin is perhaps one of the most failed ways to attempt to ctb. Don't do it. Take a deep breath and hear what we are telling you. We are here to help.
 
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You are so worried about your eyes but that's not what you should be worried about. Drinking this will destroy you're esophagus (food tube) and stomach. The esophagus will scar and stricture (close up) causing the need for a feeding tube and surgeries to dilate the esophagus with a balloon. You'll live but only be adding to an already miserable existence. Not good.

Overdosing on your antipsychotic medication is nearly impossible to take a fatal dose, you'll just get the worst cramping, diarrhea, and vomiting of your life and end up in the hospital.

Cutting blood vessels through your skin is perhaps one of the most failed ways to attempt to ctb. Don't do it. Take a deep breath and hear what we are telling you. We are here to help.

I understand the oesophagus part.
I was hoping it was 80% indeed...

I sincerely appreciate your advice. It sounds sincere and caring, sth ive forgotten exists.
Too bad Im in such a situation.
Any advice on how to tie a noose w a scarf to a doorknob?
I cant seem to get it right so the scarf stays around my carotid arteries but also to rly hang as the height is a problem as you can imagine but even if i went around that i still cant position my head to really hang.
Sorry, my concentration is poor. Been thru so much.

If i were to tie sth to the door handle's counterpart what could it be, some combo?

Only got a scarf(think) cables not long, no rope.
 
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I understand the oesophagus part.
I was hoping it was 80% indeed...

I sincerely appreciate your advice. It sounds sincere and caring, sth ive forgotten exists.
Too bad Im in such a situation.
Any advice on how to tie a noose w a scarf to a doorknob?
I cant seem to get it right so the scarf stays around my carotid arteries but also to rly hang as the height is a problem as you can imagine but even if i went around that i still cant position my head to really hang.
Sorry, my concentration is poor. Been thru so much.

If i were to tie sth to the door handle's counterpart what could it be, some combo?

Only got a scarf(think) cables not long, no rope.

You are a gentle soul. Your compliment warms me. There are Megathreads on partial hanging. Go to the search bar at the top of the forum and type in partial or hanging and read the advice there. They are long but virtually every question about it has been answered.

It makes me sad thinking about you trying to get it right, sitting on the floor, maybe even crying. It's best to research the method before you need it. When you're in your clearer mind. I don't want anyone to suffer a painful death. I'll try my best to answer your questions if you have more after reading those megathreads.
 
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