Pryras
Last hope
- Feb 11, 2020
- 451
I'm not too proud to admit where I've been wrong and have no problem taking a knee and apologizing for it.
Although in recent months, I've seen myself justify every mistake I've made into "no, that's not wrong, I didn't do anything harmful" despite the effects it had and the damage it caused.
Hindsight is what keeps me in a constant loop of "I should've just stayed quiet" but then I think about my experience and start justifying it. Yes, I shared my experience because of your lack of response and the pain I was experiencing. Should I have done that? Probably not, but I was hurting and I don't have a group of friends to share it with offline like most do. I apologized and did my damage control so what is the problem?"
Finding the right in everything I do feels narcissistic to me, like I can't be wrong. I hate to admit it but here I am justifying my actions because I'm of how hurt I was. Maybe I'm just stubborn.
Although in recent months, I've seen myself justify every mistake I've made into "no, that's not wrong, I didn't do anything harmful" despite the effects it had and the damage it caused.
Hindsight is what keeps me in a constant loop of "I should've just stayed quiet" but then I think about my experience and start justifying it. Yes, I shared my experience because of your lack of response and the pain I was experiencing. Should I have done that? Probably not, but I was hurting and I don't have a group of friends to share it with offline like most do. I apologized and did my damage control so what is the problem?"
Finding the right in everything I do feels narcissistic to me, like I can't be wrong. I hate to admit it but here I am justifying my actions because I'm of how hurt I was. Maybe I'm just stubborn.