catching the bus failed because of missing the bus

[Sanguinius]

last sunday I tried to ctb by jumping off a bridge. for to get to this bridge, you need to travel few hours by train and then you need to get in a bus which drives you up into the mountains.
so, i planned everything.
I told my mum I´d go for a walk and get to the railway station. I putted my phone in an train which drives in the oppositional direction. then I get inside the train in the right direction. I felt so calm and so lonely at the same time. I wishede is on tI had a partner so bad. (so, if anyone reads that from swizerland - pm is always open so, the train droves further and further to my destination. but then suddenly, the train stopped. Somewherhe railes, they said. so, the train stopped for about an half hour. and, as I arrived at the town, the last bus for this evening has gone away. police was searching - and finding, after some time withsome luck- me.
So, - please: incomporate bad luck.

I´m at the psych ward now and have been in isolation for the past 6 days. it isn`t funny. it really isn´t.
and the
Take care.

 

[Redt2go]

last sunday I tried to ctb by jumping off a bridge. for to get to this bridge, you need to travel few hours by train and then you need to get in a bus which drives you up into the mountains.
so, i planned everything.
I told my mum I´d go for a walk and get to the railway station. I putted my phone in an train which drives in the oppositional direction. then I get inside the train in the right direction. I felt so calm and so lonely at the same time. I wishede is on tI had a partner so bad. (so, if anyone reads that from swizerland - pm is always open so, the train droves further and further to my destination. but then suddenly, the train stopped. Somewherhe railes, they said. so, the train stopped for about an half hour. and, as I arrived at the town, the last bus for this evening has gone away. police was searching - and finding, after some time withsome luck- me.
So, - please: incomporate bad luck.

I´m at the psych ward now and have been in isolation for the past 6 days. it isn`t funny. it really isn´t.
and the
Take care.

How'd they know to look for you? Also sorry you're stuck on Ward

 

[JWL]

last sunday I tried to ctb by jumping off a bridge. for to get to this bridge, you need to travel few hours by train and then you need to get in a bus which drives you up into the mountains.
so, i planned everything.
I told my mum I´d go for a walk and get to the railway station. I putted my phone in an train which drives in the oppositional direction. then I get inside the train in the right direction. I felt so calm and so lonely at the same time. I wishede is on tI had a partner so bad. (so, if anyone reads that from swizerland - pm is always open so, the train droves further and further to my destination. but then suddenly, the train stopped. Somewherhe railes, they said. so, the train stopped for about an half hour. and, as I arrived at the town, the last bus for this evening has gone away. police was searching - and finding, after some time withsome luck- me.
So, - please: incomporate bad luck.

I´m at the psych ward now and have been in isolation for the past 6 days. it isn`t funny. it really isn´t.
and the
Take care.

If you're in a psych ward in isolation how is it that they generously allow you computer and internet use so that you can post here? It must be an extremely liberal psycho ward that allows potential suicides to access a suicide web site. You're pulling our legs, right??

 

[Sanguinius]

If you're in a psych ward in isolation how is it that they generously allow you computer and internet use so that you can post here? It must be an extremely liberal psycho ward that allows potential suicides to access a suicide web site. You're pulling our legs, right??

thats what i hate about this site. wathever you write, people always come up with unpolite behaviour. im so sick of this, really.

I am in isolation for genereal and can be outside on the ward for few hours a day. in these time i may use the laptop of the ward and there are no sites blocked or somethiing.

 

[wishfulthinking]

When I was in in the "crazy house" I also could use my phone, whenever I wanted.

When I was 16 I also wanted to jump from a 120 m high bridge, but police collected me and I went to the psych for 6 weeks and was some days in an isolation room. -.-

I hope u'll get out soon. hug you :-*

 

[JWL]

thats what i hate about this site. wathever you write, people always come up with unpolite behaviour. im so sick of this, really.

I am in isolation for genereal and can be outside on the ward for few hours a day. in these time i may use the laptop of the ward and there are no sites blocked or somethiing.

It was a fair question based on what you posted.

 

[MistakesHappen]

It was a fair question based on what you posted.

I wouldn't say it was "fair" honestly.
I don't want to start a fight, i understand the scepticism, but looking at the OP's situation there was definitely another way of asking.

Sorry to hear about your condition OP, unlucky as fuck.
I admire your strong will to accomplish your plan tho.
Be strong xx

 

[JWL]

I wouldn't say it was "fair" honestly.
I don't want to start a fight, i understand the scepticism, but looking at the OP's situation there was definitely another way of asking.

Sorry to hear about your condition OP, unlucky as fuck.
I admire your strong will to accomplish your plan tho.
Be strong xx

No problem. TBH I didn't really understand the OP's story, and I've noticed what seem to be one or two troll-like posts recently. I'm not sure there was another way of asking, as my question was clear. I'm not an expert on psych wards and I took isolation to mean isolation, but apologies to the OP if I misunderstood.

 

[MistakesHappen]

No problem. TBH I didn't really understand the OP's story, and I've noticed what seem to be one or two troll-like posts recently. I'm not sure there was another way of asking, as my question was clear. I'm not an expert on psych wards and I took isolation to mean isolation, but apologies to the OP if I misunderstood.

It was probably too clear, but i didn't see it as rude. Np, at least from me, can't talk for the op

 

[Lady black]

Good luck! Hope you will be out soon

 

[21Neberg]

last sunday I tried to ctb by jumping off a bridge. for to get to this bridge, you need to travel few hours by train and then you need to get in a bus which drives you up into the mountains.
so, i planned everything.
I told my mum I´d go for a walk and get to the railway station. I putted my phone in an train which drives in the oppositional direction. then I get inside the train in the right direction. I felt so calm and so lonely at the same time. I wishede is on tI had a partner so bad. (so, if anyone reads that from swizerland - pm is always open so, the train droves further and further to my destination. but then suddenly, the train stopped. Somewherhe railes, they said. so, the train stopped for about an half hour. and, as I arrived at the town, the last bus for this evening has gone away. police was searching - and finding, after some time withsome luck- me.
So, - please: incomporate bad luck.

I´m at the psych ward now and have been in isolation for the past 6 days. it isn`t funny. it really isn´t.
and the
Take care.

I read your post, it sounds like you had everything planned out extremely well and I'm certainly jealous of the calmness you felt on that train. However, I don't at all understand how they found you or in the first why were they looking for you? that's a question you have to answer so you can carry out your next attempt without anyone interfering. I hope you get out of the ward soon, too.

 

[JWL]

However, I don't at all understand how they found you or in the first why were they looking for you?

I didn't get much of it beyond the first few sentences. I'm assuming the OP is not a native-English speaker, but I just couldn't make cohesive sense of it (and I speak 3 foreign languages myself, so hardly new to the challenges).

 

[Sanguinius]

I read your post, it sounds like you had everything planned out extremely well and I'm certainly jealous of the calmness you felt on that train. However, I don't at all understand how they found you or in the first why were they looking for you? that's a question you have to answer so you can carry out your next attempt without anyone interfering. I hope you get out of the ward soon, too.

because of my history of suicide attempts my mother told the police as soon as she noticed I run away.

 

[ron_g]

in these time i may use the laptop of the ward and there are no sites blocked or somethiing.

Please be careful. They may do random checks on patients' internet use.
I hope you get out soon.

 

[JWL]

Please be careful. They may do random checks on patients' internet use.
I hope you get out soon.

Oh, come on, they don't already? A suicide in a psych ward has free internet access? I must be on a different planet. It's called common sense...

 

[ron_g]

Oh, come on, they don't already? A suicide in a psych ward has free internet access? I must be on a different planet. It's called common sense...

Some see internet access as a basic right.

Internet Access for Patients on Psychiatric Units

Millions of Americans rely on Internet access to fulfill everyday needs, yet psychiatric units frequently restrict patients from going online. This article reviews the evolution of legal rights for hospitalized psychiatric patients in the United States over the past 50 years and argues that...

jaapl.org

 

[21Neberg]

because of my history of suicide attempts my mother told the police as soon as she noticed I run away.

I'm sorry, that's quite unlucky. How did the police know you were going to be at that bridge though?
Next time you should get a better cover-up story so she doesn't worry. If you run away, you'll instantly set off alarm bells.

 

[Made4TV]

In the US i have been on wards with no access to internet or phones for general patients but my doctor has allowed me to use my laptop to do some work or pay bills. A big hospital usually does not have the resources to monitor sites visited and I've nevet had an issue visiting SS from a lockup. I've also been on wards that had a computer to share. I'm currently in a group home being watched for SI but allowed to have my phone and am posting this. I understand being wary of liars and scams....i was in fact the first one to call out to be wary of Vaughan when he said he was in mexico getting n and wondered if others wanted some (he edited it right after). But in this case, this person isnt in a piosition to set up a scam with this post...certainly not with this story...and i think we could all give benefit of doubt. People here are from all over the world and hospitals vary.

 

[JWL]

In the US i have been on wards with no access to internet or phones for general patients but my doctor has allowed me to use my laptop to do some work or pay bills. A big hospital usually does not have the resources to monitor sites visited and I've nevet had an issue visiting SS from a lockup. I've also been on wards that had a computer to share. I'm currently in a group home being watched for SI but allowed to have my phone and am posting this. I understand being wary of liars and scams....i was in fact the first one to call out to be wary of Vaughan when he said he was in mexico getting n and wondered if others wanted some (he edited it right after). But in this case, this person isnt in a pisition to set up a scam with this post...certainly not with this story...and i think we could all give benefit of doubt. People here are from all over the world and hospitals vary.

I appreciate your clarification of the situation, thanks. But pretty depressing to learn that a medical facility charged with the care of vunerable patients is so incompetent about their well-being. I mean, come on, allowing suicide risks to access SS etc. is almost fcking criminal!!

Would this be the same in the UK or other EU countries?

 

[Made4TV]

I'm always surprised too... you'd think they"d at least block these sites. Guessing most are unaware.. .living their happy lives. Was looking at one of my medical records where the doc wrote that i attempted ctb with "nitrous oxide and an excellant bag"...uh, ok if that's what you're calling nitrogen and exit bag these days. Clueless.

Anyway, OP others are right, it"s going to take getting out and careful planning to be successful most likely. And a poker face.

 

[JWL]

Was looking at one of my medical records where the doc wrote that i attempted ctb with "nitrous oxide and an excellant bag"...uh, ok if that's what you're calling nitrogen and exit bag these days.

Can I buy one of these excellent bags online...?

 

[Need-a-Place]

I appreciate your clarification of the situation, thanks. But pretty depressing to learn that a medical facility charged with the care of vunerable patients is so incompetent about their well-being. I mean, come on, allowing suicide risks to access SS etc. is almost fcking criminal!!

Would this be the same in the UK or other EU countries?

The US as far as I can tell is one of the stricter countries. Many countries in EU seem a lot more lax. I've seen forums where people sneak in blades and shit because their bags don't even get checked. A lot of places in EU also seem to allow personal phones which is a huge no-no in the US. Some places in US don't allow underwire bras, hoodies, outside blankets/pillows, etc. while a lot of EU wards (genralized of course) don't seem to have even these restrictions.

It's feasible that someone outside the US could be on suicide watch, inpatient, posting on this forum from their cellphone.

 

[Made4TV]

Yeah I've never been able to have my phone on a locked ward in the US unless I was writing down numbers. Once though I kept it for a while and snuck it back to my room because another patient distracted the nurse. Ooops! Lol. I'm not in a lockdown right now thankfully....kind of like a group home where they give me passes to leave as long as it's for therapy or legal appointments and I'll "contract for safety".

 

[CoolGuy9]

I love the title.