Please see P.S.
I respect very much that you're open to hearing opinions and pros and cons in order to decide. I'm sorry you're at the point of having to make such a consideration.
I think it will be a pretty good way and will leave the thought of an accident not a suicide...what do you think?
What I think is that it would be wise to consider a bigger picture. Some folks have said to consider that you might survive with injuries, and I think that's wise.
What I suggest is to imagine the scene from multiple perspectives, not just the outcome you want, but all possible outcomes, and how you will deal with them.
I suggest you imagine the perspective of being the semi driver and someone crossing over the line. Imagine the terror in seeing them coming. Imagine the stress. Imagine whose photos are on his dashboard that he'll look at. Imagine who may be in the sleep part of the cab, as perhaps he and his SO team drive. Imagine the physical pain from the impact, perhaps permanent physical damage and pain. Imagine the truck turning over and there's a oil spill. Imagine he gets killed. Imagine he woke up that day never knowing how you were going to fuck up his day, maybe his life, maybe even end it. Imagine that he ends up on disability. Imagine he was
this close to attaining a goal or a dream until you came along and made it impossible. Imagine that's
his last straw, and he subsequently ctb's.
Now I suggest you imagine once again that any of these things happened, and you survived. Will you feel guilt? Can you deal with that? Can you deal with court? Even if you plead guilty to avoid a trial, you won't avoid the courtroom completely. Can you deal with the environment of prison? Can you deal with the driver's family, and with his insurance company? Can you deal with all the shit that's going to fall down on you, and be on suicide watch and not be able to escape the situation for a long time, perhaps never?
P.S. Does it now seem easier to try to figure out CO? Does hanging seem more doable if it means not ruining someone else's life or killing them, and not going to prison?