Help Can't write a long detailed suicide note without getting emotional

[PxB]

It's a note where I explained all of the traumatic experiences I had gone through so people can truly understand the reason for my death. I'm not ready yet for CTBing but I will use this note if it's my time to go. But here's the problem, I'm halfway through and I can't continue anymore due to how painful it is to recall the continuing traumatic experiences. How do I deal with this?

 

[LoveYoux]

No rush x

 

[hopelessdreams]

i don't know either bud. I try to journal every once in a while, and one day decided to put my whole childhood on paper. I stopped midway through, and havent opened my journal since then. its too painful going through that again. our brains surpassed those emotions for a reason.

 

[PxB]

i don't know either bud. I try to journal every once in a while, and one day decided to put my whole childhood on paper. I stopped midway through, and havent opened my journal since then. its too painful going through that again. our brains surpassed those emotions for a reason.

I think I figured it out. I just took 1000 mgs of paracetamol for a headache right now and I noticed that it made me more non emotionally reactive. I searched on google to confirm if it's true:


I think I may be able to write my life down on paper without flinching now.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you have had to endure so many painful experiences in life. This life is just so cruel and unfair. I wish you the best with writing your notes.

 

[peelingbananas]

It's a note where I explained all of the traumatic experiences I had gone through so people can truly understand the reason for my death. I'm not ready yet for CTBing but I will use this note if it's my time to go. But here's the problem, I'm halfway through and I can't continue anymore due to how painful it is to recall the continuing traumatic experiences. How do I deal with this?

you're still here right?