Can't wait to die

[MutatedFlower]

I can't wait for it. You know that you death is the right choice when you are no longer scared of it. I will embrace it. When this computer my brain stops functioning, when I'm in eternal slumber, when I can forget the cruelty and unfairness that comes along with living. No I no longer want to live in this world.

And as soon as the SN comes in I'm departing this world. I have a bunch of painkillers... the only question I have is about the anti-emetic and am painfully waiting for tracking. On the bright side the order was confirmed! I'm so excited and am finally going to have peace. My illness really is terminal.

Here's a note for my family:
It's no one's fault. Not you dad, mom, or you my brothers and sisters. I know we were far from a perfect family but you can't hold yourselves responsible. I have illness and it's terminal. When a cancer patient dies, it's no one's fault. I can no longer live likes this. My only hope is that you guys are able to move on.

 

[jodes2]

I'm sorry you want to die so badly I hope you change your mind, things can get better, it takes time, help and patience so many things can be fixed, you just need to put up with problems a bit longer, try to be strong

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand your feelings. I've never wanted anything to do with something so horrific and useless as existing, being aware of this world and being trapped here really is the problem and is the worst thing. To die is ideal to me as it removes the true cause of all suffering and torment in the first place, and it's finally freedom from the burden that is existing. I get why you would feel so relieved and excited. There's nothing more comforting than the thought of permanently ceasing to exist, I hope that you find what you wish for.

 

[SpiroSundae]

Same, it's one of the most comforting thoughts ever. it's a good feeling knowing there's always an out.

 

[Caustic]

I hope you find your peace in whatever you decide. <3