Venting Can't find a way

[Jewels]

Can't seem to find a method that suits me, I need to ctb asàp but I either haven't got the money, can't access what I need or just can't find the time or privacy to carry it out...I don't know what I'm to do, I'm quite desperate and feel helpless!!!

 

[Kdawg2018]

I know how you feel, what methods are you considering?

 

[OkTotti]

Where are you located? What do you have access to?

 

[Jewels]

I'm in NZ, I have little access to anything, I'm not sure I can even find things like SN in this country, it's quite distressing

 

[Jewels]

I've thought about hanging myself but I need time for that, including practice time, its so much harder to do than you'd think, I also have a huge fear of failure, if I had money I'd try and get N past our customs which is one of the best in the world and hard to get passed, so fustrating

 

[Jewels]

I know how you feel, what methods are you considering?

I've thought a lot about hanging myself or some kind of poison, preferably one that doesn't cause shortness of breath but finding one that I can access easily is an issue, I don't have the time or the privacy to be making stuff, aaarrrghh why is it so hard!!

 

[Sinbad]

NZ? Consider jumping..

 

[Jewels]

NZ? Consider jumping..

No I haven't, where I live there isn't even tall buildings and its quite flat. I've been living here a couple of years and still feel like I don't really know the area very well. If I knew where to jump from I may consider it

 

[Sinbad]

Do some Google searching.. Look for brides, cliffs, and high buildings.

Also, try to find SN online. I bet it's available.

 

[Jewels]

Do some Google searching.. Look for brides, cliffs, and high buildings.

Also, try to find SN online. I bet it's available.

Good idea's!! I'll have a look online and see what I can find

 

[TAW122]

I live in the US, so I don't know all the areas in NZ where one can jump. Are you able to go to a secluded place, particularly one with a cliff or a mountain? Also, if there are tall bridges with a long drop below, those could be something to consider.

 

[Jewels]

I live in the US, so I don't know all the areas in NZ where one can jump. Are you able to go to a secluded place, particularly one with a cliff or a mountain? Also, if there are tall bridges with a long drop below, those could be something to consider.

I live in Hastings, not a lot of height around me and I don't have a vehicle, I just feel like every door gets shut on me, I wish I had money to play with but I don't, very very frustrating, I am going to look online and see if I can find somewhere within either bus or walking distance, I've thought about benadryl and paracetamol too but these methods sound horrendous and too much of a gamble with whether you actually die or not, I'll also look online for SN but would be concerned getting the rest of the cocktail together, I see people having trouble getting the right drugs in countries where the doctors are a lot more relaxed than here. I sound full of excuses I know

 

[TiredHorse]

No website has all the answers, and I have yet to find one that has 100% reliable information on the technical details of any given method --partly, to be fair, because methods are constantly being refined and adjusted-- but this is where I started looking for ideas: http://lostallhope.com/ If you find something that looks promising, bring it up here on ss and you'll likely find more focussed advice on the pros/cons, technical details, etc.

I will second your wise assessment: do not try to ctb with paracetemol. It is by all accounts a horrible way to die.

Full of excuses? Nope. Full of careful thoughts. You're doing just fine.

"Proper prior preparation..."

 

[Afterman]

I live in Hastings, not a lot of height around me and I don't have a vehicle, I just feel like every door gets shut on me, I wish I had money to play with but I don't, very very frustrating, I am going to look online and see if I can find somewhere within either bus or walking distance, I've thought about benadryl and paracetamol too but these methods sound horrendous and too much of a gamble with whether you actually die or not, I'll also look online for SN but would be concerned getting the rest of the cocktail together, I see people having trouble getting the right drugs in countries where the doctors are a lot more relaxed than here. I sound full of excuses I know

Have you looked into carotid compression? They're are several methods and you can even lay down during the act

 

[GreenLantern]

No I haven't, where I live there isn't even tall buildings and its quite flat. I've been living here a couple of years and still feel like I don't really know the area very well. If I knew where to jump from I may consider it

Go to Auckland. Several tall buildings there including Skytower.

On a side note, it's fun to hang out at skytower.

 

[Jewels]

Have you looked into carotid compression? They're are several methods and you can even lay down during the act[/QU

Have you looked into carotid compression? They're are several methods and you can even lay down during the act

I've looked at it yes, I would be concerned about getting found before I'm finished, haven't got much privacy here unfortunately , I guess I could find somewhere to do it outside