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myrtaryniel

myrtaryniel

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Mar 28, 2019
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Just this. I don't know if any of you can give me some of advierte but it would be great if you shared your experiences on the matter.
I have tried ctb with alcohol and benzos (but never again, it' almost impossible to die), with carbon monoxide on my bathroom, but my SI kicked in about 20 minutes after real bad.
My perfect ending would be throwing myself off a nearby bridge, but I've always been terrrorized by heights and I begin to panic every time I come close to a high place. It really sucks when your mind wants to die but your body is like lol not today
 
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discokicks

discokicks

Student
Apr 19, 2019
121
i'm sure many of us have gone through this. I'm hoping for Sn. And I will be drunk to calm my nerves. What about drowning? I've often thought it might be peaceful if drunk enough? I could never jump.
 
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ZomGuy

ZomGuy

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Mar 1, 2019
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i'm sure many of us have gone through this. I'm hoping for Sn. And I will be drunk to calm my nerves. What about drowning? I've often thought it might be peaceful if drunk enough? I could never jump.
There's something called "shallow water blackout". It can be used to ctb.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/shallow-water-blackout.4315/
 
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fisil

Arcanist
Mar 9, 2019
432
Nembutal
 
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Hermione

Member
Apr 28, 2019
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No advice unfortunately, I can only empathize as I'm in the same situation. X
 
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AloneInTheSky

AloneInTheSky

Member
May 13, 2019
10
I'm in the same boat but I'm leaning more towards partial hanging or the tourniquet method. Pills are helpful in that it's less intense than jumping in terms of the SI but they can get really complex with everything you have to take to ensure they work, and it can get expensive :/
 
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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
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When your mind is Tommen but your body is Arya.

I'm having trouble finding the right way too. Makes me feel even more trapped like I won't even have my only escape anymore.
 
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Oblivion

Oblivion

Wizard
Aug 2, 2018
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i'm sure many of us have gone through this. I'm hoping for Sn. And I will be drunk to calm my nerves. What about drowning? I've often thought it might be peaceful if drunk enough? I could never jump.
I think if you get drunk and take SN youd throw up
 
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BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

The Arsonist
Apr 7, 2019
1,193
Samesies
Hanging? Too anxious Ill tie the rope the wrong way and it will break or slip
Jumping? No accessible building here and the nearest tall bridge is 200 km away
Train? Dont want to give the driver ptsd or be arrested by railway guards
Slitting wrists or od? Wont work
CO? Idk how to make it work
N? Too broke to buy it and my parents may find it and confiscate it
Id love to drown myself but it just wont work the few times I tried, the SI is too bad
DAAAAAMN
 
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deathxoxo

deathxoxo

Member
May 14, 2019
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I'm starting to feel that a train is my best option. If I go at night I doubt that the driver will see me. I've gone out to the tracks a few times to see what anyone will do. I sheriff came and asked me if i was suicidal I told him no and he just left. Not that I was expecting anything I don't think i'll be arrested. I agree with bridge jumper 1994 hanging gives me anxiety & I'm a hour an half from the golden gate bridge. I'd drown myself but i'm a strong swimmer to begin with. I just got a job as a lifeguard and I feel no excitement I hope to kill myself before the season starts. With regards to the train I've got the sense that it's a selfish way to go. I accept that it's going to be rough for the emts, train driver and whoever else is on scene. I know one thing though, I will not let my family or friends identity my body. My ID should be enough.
 
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Robbyna

Robbyna

Student
Mar 6, 2019
182
I'm in the same situation. SI is so powerful.
 
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