Can’t decide whether to ctb soon or wait

[Maximoo]

I had plans to ctb very soon but I keep changing my mind back and forth. Should I do it now, should I wait a few months, I should just do it now.. etc. I'm 99% sure things aren't gonna change for the better even if I wait a couple months. I'm just putting it off like it's a chore I'm gonna need to do eventually. Still I keep thinking I should wait a little while. I think I'm just scared to be honest

I don't even know if this is a rant or if I want advice

 

[Sleeper System]

If you're going to do it then just do it when it feels right.
Don't feel pressured to do it like you're on a time frame.
When the moment comes, you will know it. So decide in that moment.
For now, just coast along. See if anything changes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I guess that after all only the individual knows when the time is right for them to leave, I believe they will just feel certain. But anyway I wish you the best.