Can't be bothered with CTB( lazy)

[Defenestration]

I I can't be bothered with CTB I need to update my CTB letter...
write other things like sn and not jump. I need to clear out my computer, my laptop, and my apartment. In short, hours and hours of work... I'm lazy...

, I can't commit suicide next week because there's a train strike, and my sister wouldn't be able to come if I did... and the week after, I have to look after her dog at her house...

In short, it's been postponed again, starting May 20th...

I'm frustrated because my urge to do CTB is less strong... but hey, that doesn't change the underlying problem, and I'll be better off dead, and nothing will be resolved (my mother's neurodegenerative disease), my incurable psychiatric illnesses...

In short, every night I dream of dying in my sleep. I prefer that to winning 100 million euros in the lottery... Why do so many people die stupidly every day, and I'm still here? I hate living...
I'm very lazy...
I'm very lazy...
I'm very lazy...

 

[Defenestration]

Lazy to live

 

[Defenestration]

its very boring

 

[bees.]

HELL YEAH SOMEONE SAID IT!!!
this is the genuine reason I've made it this far, and how I manage to be clean from sh for so long. It's not people or activities,,, it's because I'm too lazy. ctb is hard and takes a lot of work to set up and I simply do not have the energy so I just live
you are not alone chief

 

[bankai]

Lazy Bros unite!Having to search all these things myself has made me pretty slow as well.Being lazy is tough. But I think if we are united, we will get through it.

 

[divinemistress36]

I doubt its just laziness. Depression zaps all energy and motivation

 

[Pale_Rider]

It does take a lot of work. It takes a lot of time, and then even when the pieces are in place there is the SI, and execution conundrum.

I have done it without hesitation before, but maybe that's why I'm still here? Har har.

Not enough quality planning.

I just want a killswitch currently.

 

[Defenestration]

Even i have an orgasm i think to die