Venting Can't and won't accept reality

[BobbyPellitt]

Anyone here live inside their head most of the time because they can't come to terms with reality? I'm an ugly, incompetent, socially inept and extremely sensitive (not a good combination) guy. Most people I met, ranging from coworkers to complete strangers treat me like shit (or maybe it's not that bad and I'm just too sensitive and negative). Rather than confronting the harsh reality, I decided to isolate myself from others instead. I live inside my head most of the time, a place where I can be someone else, creating imaginary conversation and scenario with other people, some of who I haven't even met. As a result, I never worked to improve aspect of my life, but rather choose to live on imagination. Then, when I'm confronted with reality by being in social situations, I realize how everything was only my imagination and I'm left bitter, waiting for the day to end so I can avoid people and isolate myself once more. It's an endless cycle of isolation and delusion.

I would like to add some of my favorite quotes from tv shows that are related to this thread:

"Your mind rejects reality, rejects itself."
-Westworld (S2E4)

"Your mind cannot reconcile the person we see, with the person you think you are."
-Legion (S2E8)

On a side note, I can't wait for Joker to come out. It's one of the few reason why I'm still here.

 

[BPD_LE]

Yes. I have this coping mechanism too. My fantasy life is awesome. I'll turn down invites to socialise just to stay home and live my other life.

 

[Baskol1]

No, the truth may be harsh, but fleeing into delusions will not make it better. Many people hate the truth, i get that. Many people are offended by the truth too. But the truth will always be the truth, the truth will haunt you if you ignore it forever.

 

[who doesn't matter]

Welcome to the inner circle of the club. Everyone have their ways of dealing with the complications life serve in the golden plate of misery. For me, I do the same. Retiring myself to my own imaginary world.

 

[woxihuanni]

I cannot accept reality or create a fantasy in its stead. Just ignore it by avoiding myself.

 

[Shamana]

I can't deal with the reality of my anymore as well, how I've fucked up myself and repurcussions of it. Neither can I really deal with going ahead with suicide. So I struggle with being in Limbo.

 

[StillWaiting]

Can't deal with reality and can't seems to create imaginary friends to have conversations

 

[woxihuanni]

I can't deal with the reality of my anymore as well, how I've fucked up myself and repurcussions of it. Neither can I really deal with going ahead with suicide. So I struggle with being in Limbo.

I am so hopeless that I don't trust my method will work even if I do everything right. Just that I'm meant to endure more humiliation because that is just how life is for me. Nothing would make me so happy as to learn I have cancer, but cancer is for luckier people.

 

[Shamana]

I am so hopeless that I don't trust my method will work even if I do everything right. Just that I'm meant to endure more humiliation because that is just how life is for me. Nothing would make me so happy as to learn I have cancer, but cancer is for luckier people.

Dying from cancer is infinitely more painful and slower than dying from suicide. Don't think you'd want it.

 

[SelfHatingAspie]

Anyone here live inside their head most of the time because they can't come to terms with reality?

Sort of. Although it's more a case of not wanting to live in the present, therefore spending too much time considering possible future outcomes with varying degrees of likelihood.

I would like to add some of my favorite quotes from tv shows that are related to this thread:

"Your mind rejects reality, rejects itself."
-Westworld (S2E4)

"Your mind cannot reconcile the person we see, with the person you think you are."
-Legion (S2E8)

"I reject your reality and substitute my own!"
- Adam Savage, Mythbusters

 

[woxihuanni]

Dying from cancer is infinitely more painful and slower than dying from suicide. Don't think you'd want it.

They'd have to give morphine or something. Botching a suicide would fuck my life up even worse and I'm scared of that. Also, if I had cancer and then botched the suicide, the repercussions would be less bad.

Oh but it's A. whose mere possibility of cancer is devastating. If I had it, good luck but don't spoil the party. I really don't know what to do with the seething wrath.

 

[Donewith_]

You sound like male version of me.
I have been living like this from along time. Stuck in my own head..
For me it started in childhood..when things were the way i hate, when i faced abuse..i used to feel helpless, then start imagining things the way i wanted them to be..
Its a messed up way to cope.

 

[Astral316]

Sounds like me, except even in my head people treat me like shit. If I don't suicide I'll live out the rest of my life as a hermit.

 

[SelfHatingAspie]

Dying from cancer is infinitely more painful and slower than dying from suicide. Don't think you'd want it.

True. But it's a far more socially acceptable way to die than ctb.

 

[woxihuanni]

True. But it's a far more socially acceptable way to die than ctb.

Yeah at least your murderers don't shit on your grave saying that you deserved to die and how happy they are to be rid of you. It bothers me so much my death will be met with jubilance.

 

[Orin]

I also isolate myself from the world. I see social interaction with "normies" as a waste of time. It's just all about them extracting information from me and how they can use that info against me. If not, then it all boils down to them finding an aspect of life where they are "superior" to me and either they criticize, brag or give unsolicited advice. It's shallow and pathetic. Very unlike the people here, that's why i enjoy socializing with you guys so much.

 

[BobbyPellitt]

I am so hopeless that I don't trust my method will work even if I do everything right. Just that I'm meant to endure more humiliation because that is just how life is for me. Nothing would make me so happy as to learn I have cancer, but cancer is for luckier people.

I recently picked up a habit of smoking cigarettes. Tried it once a long time ago but never really liked how it tasted or affected my health. Now that I got nothing to lose and on the verge of CTB, I figured why not. I dont even like the taste all much (for those of you curious, smoking sort of make your tongue go numb with a touch of mint). However, I like the idea that smoking would potentially give me lung cancer (ik its fucked up) incase I didnt have the guts to CTB (SI is a bitch).

 

[woxihuanni]

I recently picked up a habit of smoking cigarettes. Tried it once a long time ago but never really liked how it tasted or affected my health. Now that I got nothing to lose and on the verge of CTB, I figured why not. I dont even like the taste all much (for those of you curious, smoking sort of make your tongue go numb with a touch of mint). However, I like the idea that smoking would potentially give me lung cancer (ik its fucked up) incase I didnt have the guts to CTB (SI is a bitch).

I'm a long time smoker, and for the past two months smoke like a chimney. Pretty sure I won't get lung cancer, because I want to have it! I hate the taste, too, cannot smoke without having something to drink with it.