I don't know you, but I would like to say some things.
First of all, I am sorry you have a hard time dealing with your mental health, but I hope you treat yourself the same way you would treat a best friend.
I hope you can forgive yourself for all the times you failed, because you deserve forgiveness. I hope you can look at yourself with compassion, because you deserve understanding.
I hope you can learn how to love yourself, because it doesn't matter what happens inside your head or whatever happens in your life, you deserve love. You are the only one who knows how it is to be inside of yourself. And the kind of love you deserve is, above all, your love, because that's the love that saves.
I hope you can look at yourself in the mirror and feel grateful because that's the body that allows you to feel the sand in your toes and the wind in your hair.
Sometimes it gets hard and all we want to do is to give up, but I hope you can always remember you have the most important thing by your side: your own self. Embrace yourself, beautiful. Don't ever let anyone or anything drag you down. Make yourself your most precious thing.
And in this path of recovery, I hope you can hold tight to the good things, because even though life is unfair, we can be and do better.
You have the right to be in this earth and you are part of it.
I hope you can see and appreciate the universe you have inside of you.