Can you help me?

[Haexx]

Hi everyone. I will start with some informations about me. I am a 35 yo man, living in Switzerland. My professional life is a failure and I can't find a job for years. This is very difficult since everyone around me (family, friends) have succeed. I didn't study the right things and I tend to be very uncomfortable with people because I lack confidence. Some month ago, my long-term girlfriend (who was everything for me) left me suddenly, with no clear reasons (I just know one of her reason is that I don't have a job and I financially depend on me parents). Since she left me I feel devastated and I am not able to recover. I am isolated in my flat and I think about suicide everyday. I feel extremely ashamed and I don't want to continue to be a burden for my family.

I plan to kill myself with a bullet into the head. I will buy a big gun, something like a Desert Eagle and shoot to the side of my head (I will be careful not to only destroy my face but to really target the middle of the brain). To be sure to succeed, I want to combine this with a poison. Can you help me to choose one? I was thinking about a toxic plant. Thank you for reading me.

 

[Ren Elsie Jewelria]

Yes I can help you. Ignore that wh0r3. I;', 40 y-o loser and wouldn'tkill myself over a woman, Believe me, there are millions girl like her. Buy that gun to attract other g

 

[Trueform]

Where do you plan to buy a gun?

 

[Peel_the_Banana]

Hi everyone. I will start with some informations about me. I am a 35 yo man, living in Switzerland. My professional life is a failure and I can't find a job for years. This is very difficult since everyone around me (family, friends) have succeed. I didn't study the right things and I tend to be very uncomfortable with people because I lack confidence. Some month ago, my long-term girlfriend (who was everything for me) left me suddenly, with no clear reasons (I just know one of her reason is that I don't have a job and I financially depend on me parents). Since she left me I feel devastated and I am not able to recover. I am isolated in my flat and I think about suicide everyday. I feel extremely ashamed and I don't want to continue to be a burden for my family.

I plan to kill myself with a bullet into the head. I will buy a big gun, something like a Desert Eagle and shoot to the side of my head (I will be careful not to only destroy my face but to really target the middle of the brain). To be sure to succeed, I want to combine this with a poison. Can you help me to choose one? I was thinking about a toxic plant. Thank you for reading me.

You should do your own research. The resources thread has methods. You can also use the search bar to see what other people did or used in their planning process.

Choosing suicide, a gun, or any particular method is not simply a process of "eeny meany miney moe".

 

[Haexx]

Where do you plan to buy a gun?

In Switzerland it is possible to obtain a permit (I have it already) to buy a weapon. Then I just need to go in a store.

 

[Ren Elsie Jewelria]

Hi everyone. I will start with some informations about me. I am a 35 yo man, living in Switzerland. My professional life is a failure and I can't find a job for years. This is very difficult since everyone around me (family, friends) have succeed. I didn't study the right things and I tend to be very uncomfortable with people because I lack confidence. Some month ago, my long-term girlfriend (who was everything for me) left me suddenly, with no clear reasons (I just know one of her reason is that I don't have a job and I financially depend on me parents). Since she left me I feel devastated and I am not able to recover. I am isolated in my flat and I think about suicide everyday. I feel extremely ashamed and I don't want to continue to be a burden for my family.

I plan to kill myself with a bullet into the head. I will buy a big gun, something like a Desert Eagle and shoot to the s ide of my head (I will be careful not to only destroy my face but to really target the middle of the brain). To be sure to succeed, I want to combine this with a poison. Can you help me to choose one? I was thinking about a toxic plant. Thank you for reading me.

Calm down. Believe me, you DO NOT want to kill yourself over a woann. There are millions of them. Get account on dating site, buy yourself a hooker, whatever.

 

[lostmyhope86]

i'm from switzerland too, and my wife leave my house on the night. i understand how u feel. if you need somebody to talk, i'm here. i can speak italian, french or english

 

[Trueform]

i'm from switzerland too, and my wife leave my house on the night. i understand how u feel. if you need somebody to talk, i'm here. i can speak italian, french or english

Do you mean she's cheating on you?

 

[lostmyhope86]

Do you mean she's cheating on you?

The story is very complicated and long. I try to make short.
One day i discover she chat with some man in tiktok, 14 years younger than her, in a romantic way. i don't know if she already meet him or not. i just discover the chat. so i get angry and when i try to ask explication and say that i want divorce i obtain no reaction from her. For one week i sleep in another room

But one day we fighting, i ask her explication, and i slap her 3 times. in the morning, when i sleep she run away. After one week she go to the police and she accuse me of many things fake, like i rape her 2 times on the marriage, i slap her many times i use her like a slave ecc ecc. She also show fake photo of last day, were she appear very red in face and neck and she say i try to kill her and strangulate. I just lucky i was acces to her google photos and i have the real photo.
She do that because she need a way for stay here in switzerland with visa, because if ask divorce she lose everything. But now, she can't lose visa anymore thanks to this bullshit. so somebody explain her how to do

At this moment she live with this boy, and i risk to go in jail.

i lose my job, because i make 15days of temporary prison until the investigation was finish.
When i try to contact her she never answer to me.

at the end of this story i will lose more than 30.000 euro, and risk of jail time

I'm in shock for too many reason. Our relationship was perfect. We never fight, we make sex 2 times at day, we was happy.
But one day i wake up and i discover i was married with a monster.
I already know she was a psycopath because of her relationship with family, daughter and ex husband. But i never think she arrive at point to do that to me.

 

[Trueform]

The story is very complicated and long. I try to make short.
One day i discover she chat with some man in tiktok, 14 years younger than her, in a romantic way. i don't know if she already meet him or not. i just discover the chat. so i get angry and when i try to ask explication and say that i want divorce i obtain no reaction from her. For one week i sleep in another room

But one day we fighting, i ask her explication, and i slap her 3 times. in the morning, when i sleep she run away. After one week she go to the police and she accuse me of many things fake, like i rape her 2 times on the marriage, i slap her many times i use her like a slave ecc ecc. She also show fake photo of last day, were she appear very red in face and neck and she say i try to kill her and strangulate. I just lucky i was acces to her google photos and i have the real photo.
She do that because she need a way for stay here in switzerland with visa, because if ask divorce she lose everything. But now, she can't lose visa anymore thanks to this bullshit. so somebody explain her how to do

At this moment she live with this boy, and i risk to go in jail.

i lose my job, because i make 15days of temporary prison until the investigation was finish.
When i try to contact her she never answer to me.

at the end of this story i will lose more than 30.000 euro, and risk of jail time

I'm in shock for too many reason. Our relationship was perfect. We never fight, we make sex 2 times at day, we was happy.
But one day i wake up and i discover i was married with a monster.
I already know she was a psycopath because of her relationship with family, daughter and ex husband. But i never think she arrive at point to do that to me.

Fucking brutal story man, thank god im an introvert and antisocial i will never get married. Hopefully things turn out in your favor and your life turns around.

 

[lostmyhope86]

Fucking brutal story man, thank god im an introvert and antisocial i will never get married. Hopefully things turn out in your favor and your life turns around.

The full story is more brutal than that. that's why i'm here. Because ctb is my way out.
I'm so broken that i don't think i can have human feeling anymore.
I married the devil. The evil

And today, if she come back i'm ready to forgive her. Did you understand how much i'm pathetic?

 

[Trueform]

The full story is more brutal than that. that's why i'm here. Because ctb is my way out.
I'm so broken that i don't think i can have human feeling anymore.
I married the devil. The evil

And today, if she come back i'm ready to forgive her. Did you understand how much i'm pathetic?

Yeah man I know. Women can be really cruel.. at the end they are humans and humans are the most disgusting opportunistic selfish species that is walking around on this planet.

 

[Haexx]

Yes I can help you. Ignore that wh0r3. I;', 40 y-o loser and wouldn'tkill myself over a woman, Believe me, there are millions girl like her. Buy that gun to attract other g

Calm down. Believe me, you DO NOT want to kill yourself over a woann. There are millions of them. Get account on dating site, buy yourself a hooker, whatever.

It's not only because of her. There is also my professional situation and I probably my personality (I already had intense suicidal thought in the past). But the fact she left suddenly with no news is the trigger.

The story is very complicated and long. I try to make short.
One day i discover she chat with some man in tiktok, 14 years younger than her, in a romantic way. i don't know if she already meet him or not. i just discover the chat. so i get angry and when i try to ask explication and say that i want divorce i obtain no reaction from her. For one week i sleep in another room

But one day we fighting, i ask her explication, and i slap her 3 times. in the morning, when i sleep she run away. After one week she go to the police and she accuse me of many things fake, like i rape her 2 times on the marriage, i slap her many times i use her like a slave ecc ecc. She also show fake photo of last day, were she appear very red in face and neck and she say i try to kill her and strangulate. I just lucky i was acces to her google photos and i have the real photo.
She do that because she need a way for stay here in switzerland with visa, because if ask divorce she lose everything. But now, she can't lose visa anymore thanks to this bullshit. so somebody explain her how to do

At this moment she live with this boy, and i risk to go in jail.

i lose my job, because i make 15days of temporary prison until the investigation was finish.
When i try to contact her she never answer to me.

at the end of this story i will lose more than 30.000 euro, and risk of jail time

I'm in shock for too many reason. Our relationship was perfect. We never fight, we make sex 2 times at day, we was happy.
But one day i wake up and i discover i was married with a monster.
I already know she was a psycopath because of her relationship with family, daughter and ex husband. But i never think she arrive at point to do that to me.

It looks really difficult. And what she did to you is disgusting. If you want to speak more about that we can. I don't know if this can help you to feel a little bit better, but I think that finally you didn't loose anything if she is a monster. Instead, you just discover the truth about her (I used to see things like that with an ex who wanted to have a toxic relationship with me a long time ago).

For me it is different since we only had minor fights from times to times. I was totally surprised when she left. I think I invested too much energy in this relation because I really love her. She was very nice and a beautiful asian woman. For all these years I believed she loved me but I was probably wrong.

After reading your story, I noticed it can be useful to look at the relation between the woman and her ex partner. In my case, I remember she also disappeared the same way from the life of her ex.

 

[lostmyhope86]

She was very nice and a beautiful asian woman

same my wife. she is thai.
i'm wonder if is the same girl, lol
what's her name?

 

[Haexx]

same my wife. she is thai.
i'm wonder if is the same girl, lol
what's her name?

No they aren't the same, my ex is chinese.

 

[Haexx]

I am going to buy a pistol (to shoot myself), but I worry I may survive. Which caliber should I choose to minimize this risk? I wanted to buy a desert Eagle but it is hard to find.

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

Fucking brutal story man, thank god im an introvert and antisocial i will never get married. Hopefully things turn out in your favor and your life turns around.

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