Can you find real peace while waiting to CTB?

[Lookoutbelow]

I know my time is coming soon. My suicide is situational. Once my living situation changes (I will be homeless soon) then I will be forced to do it. I have a few weeks. I visualize my death daily but I don't want to. Has anyone been able to really appreciate their last days or is it just a slow drag till the end?

 

[lwlaiet8887]

For me it's currently a slow drag. I'm sitting around waiting for the days to pass before I finally get paid. I've made peace with it though, I only just wish I CTB earlier.

 

[Lookoutbelow]

For me it's currently a slow drag. I'm sitting around waiting for the days to pass before I finally get paid. I've made peace with it though, I only just wish I CTB earlier.

I feel you. I have made peace with CTB. I just want to enjoy my last days, but I can't seem to. It is a slow drag.

 

[cscott]

Slow drag .. it's like my last days I'm dragging myself through the last fire to exit hell with the last amounts of energy I have left!

I have no energy to even brush my teeth I'm that sick of being human. I truly just cannot be bothered any fuxking more.

I check my postage tracking 24/7-365

 

[girlsboysthems]

sloow drag, im waiting for the arrival of my method at the wait is annoying me.

 

[jonward55]

Slow drag .. it's like my last days I'm dragging myself through the last fire to exit hell with the last amounts of energy I have left!

I have no energy to even brush my teeth I'm that sick of being human. I truly just cannot be bothered any fuxking more.

I check my postage tracking 24/7-365

I'm at an end as well, can't even be bothered to wash. Going to use the SN without the other stuff since I'm going to puke anyway and a while of pain will go away eventually.

 

[cscott]

I'm at an end as well, can't even be bothered to wash. Going to use the SN without the other stuff since I'm going to puke anyway and a while of pain will go away eventually.

Yep nothing. I literally got energy for fuck all.. all my energy goes into checking ss or having to feed my self the last moments my body yearns for a bit of food.

Why are you not waiting for AE & benzos ?

 

[jonward55]

Yep nothing. I literally got energy for fuck all.. all my energy goes into checking ss or having to feed my self the last moments my body yearns for a bit of food.

Why are you not waiting for AE & benzos ?

I can't find AE in the UK. I tried an online pharmacy and they rejected the order

 

[cscott]

I can't find AE in the UK. I tried an online pharmacy and they rejected the order

I'm uk I have one if u can wait.. u can pm me

 

[アホペンギン]

nuh uh

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

No. And it gets exponenitally worse as you age.

 

[garrypallister99]

I know my time is coming soon. My suicide is situational. Once my living situation changes (I will be homeless soon) then I will be forced to do it. I have a few weeks. I visualize my death daily but I don't want to. Has anyone been able to really appreciate their last days or is it just a slow drag till the end?

I have

 

[jonward55]

I'm uk I have one if u can wait.. u can pm me

Thanks I did. Hopefully I can use the reason that you used !

 

[cscott]

Thanks I did. Hopefully I can use the reason that you used !

Other PM doesn't work so I started conversation. Ur welcome

 

[jonward55]

Other PM doesn't work so I started conversation. Ur welcome

Got it thanks