Discussion Can you believe some people are out there with great health a family a job money joy while some of us got wrecked with bad health from childhood

[fkyou]

Wow can you believe some people are out there with great health a family a job money joy while some of us got wrecked with bad health from childhood...I had ocd since childhood.. existential depression where I feel like I'm lost in life..I had very bad eye sight that to this day I resent it makes me feel awful I litterally can feel like I'm not comfortable with my own eyes there's that weakness discomfort lingering pain in them..I'm awful at communicating with others I speak like a robot..I have an addiction for some reason I don't know..i have narcissistic personality tendancies..now after I grew up and stopped lying to myself I realize I was always a weirdo from the start..my quietness and introversion anxiousness wasn't a temporary thing it's a flaw..when I was young for some reason I never saw things for what they are..I brushed bad things off because I didn't understand life well my life at home was boring to miserable..we lived with a lot of boredom and mental illness of my sisters..I didn't even have health..most people have health at least..I was one of those who had no happiness no health either..this is literally barbaric..no child deserved to be like this.. the health part was the most hurtful..some people they have health so even if they have awful home life they decompress outside with their friends school the outer world..but I couldn't do that..for some reason I was disabled even in communication and emotions..I didn't match the kids energy their temper the things they liked how they behave..I was an ill zombie.
Life is indeed unfair..and it starts with something as basic as health and belonging.

I'm having so many realizations now that are not helping me stay fine at all..I'd rather not realize anything when I'm at the end of ctbing..it was none of my fault..it seems like it tho..even the health part..its part of my identity

 

[itsgone2]

I'm having so many realizations now that are not helping me stay fine at all..I'd rather not realize anything when I'm at the end of ctbing..it was none of my fault..it seems like it tho..even the health part..its part of my identity

Yes, there are legitimately happy people. Yes, we aren't them and every day also brings me new realizations to make it worse.
I wish it would end.