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SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
658
its all i can think about
but ive heard its not very fatal
starting to feel like its my only option and i really want to do it tonight
 
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Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
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Drinking bleach is a slow, painful, and agonizing death. If you feel that you have no other choice than to die by your own hand, consider other methods which allow you to die a more peaceful death.
 
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Thereisnothing

Thereisnothing

Enlightened
Jan 4, 2020
1,604
Please dont drink, I appreciate you are suffering and in so much pain sweetheart (as am I) but this will only cause you more anguish and pain. I second what @Sensei has said, please try and find another method which is kinder and peaceful to yourself. You suffer enough without a nasty exit. I hope you can find some strength to hang on awhile. If its any help I am incredibly suicidal today and cant stand to carry on existing, yet have no method of CTB so be futile me even trying. Anything on impulse would be a big mistake for me.:heart::heart::heart:
 
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Worndown

Worndown

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Mar 21, 2019
2,639
You will probably not die but will really wish you did as it dissolves your mucus membranes. Think endless pain and suffering.
 
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Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

existence is futile
Jul 10, 2019
2,225
Nope not a good idea, Don't do it, just don't!!
 
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UpandDownPrincess

UpandDownPrincess

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Dec 31, 2019
833
Oh my goodness, NO!

Please don't do this. The pain of bleach on your mucous membranes will be incredible, and not in a good way.

As strong as you are, and as much pain as you have suffered, you can not imagine such a burning, searing pain. Like swallowing a thousand red-hot razor blades all at once.

Death is not instant. As that white hot ball of fire makes it way down your chest, you will give anything to be dead. But you will not be. You will be alive, and awake, and suffering. Your body will desperately try to expel it by pushing up, but your mouth will do anything to keep it from coming back, pressing that bubble of pain until you wish you would explode.

All of this will take seconds but will seem like a million years. If you pass out from the pain, you will be one of the lucky ones.

When you wake up days later, you will have lost the ability to speak. You will want for death every.single.second. The pain cannot be well controlled.

You will likely end up in psych ward, unable to talk or advocate for yourself.

Please, I beg of you, don't do this.
 
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Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
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Don't try drinking bleach, @SHThrowAway213 sweetie! You know you don't want to. You know it won't kill you and will just cause you awful longterm pain. That's not what you want. Don't. Please don't.
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

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Dec 1, 2019
2,362
Drinking bleach is a slow, painful, and agonizing death. If you feel that you have no other choice than to die by your own hand, consider other methods which allow you to die a more peaceful death.
This. I've been to people who've drank bleach when I was able to work. They were in agony, it will honestly leave you needing a life time of medical care, you will never been the same again. Probably needing a permenant tracheostomy. Don't do it. It's not worth it and it probably wont kill you.
 
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SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
658
thanks for the replies
im just getting so desperate
i have failed too many times
i just want it all to end
 
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enjoy

enjoy

Creature
Dec 20, 2019
337
i'd recommend checking out threads detailing different methods. drinking bleach is a horrifying way to die and if you don't die, your body will be screwed up forever.
 
BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,362
thanks for the replies
im just getting so desperate
i have failed too many times
i just want it all to end
Check the megathread and resource threads, see if there is anything that catches your eye there.
 
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SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
658
Check the megathread and resource threads, see if there is anything that catches your eye there.
sn did but my husband found my last batch
ive tried partial around ten times
 
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Quarky00

Quarky00

Enlightened
Dec 17, 2019
1,956
Oh my goodness, NO!

Please don't do this. The pain of bleach on your mucous membranes will be incredible, and not in a good way.

As strong as you are, and as much pain as you have suffered, you can not imagine such a burning, searing pain. Like swallowing a thousand red-hot razor blades all at once.

Death is not instant. As that white hot ball of fire makes it way down your chest, you will give anything to be dead. But you will not be. You will be alive, and awake, and suffering. Your body will desperately try to expel it by pushing up, but your mouth will do anything to keep it from coming back, pressing that bubble of pain until you wish you would explode.

All of this will take seconds but will seem like a million years. If you pass out from the pain, you will be one of the lucky ones.

When you wake up days later, you will have lost the ability to speak. You will want for death every.single.second. The pain cannot be well controlled.

You will likely end up in psych ward, unable to talk or advocate for yourself.

Please, I beg of you, don't do this.
That should be framed and put in the Resource page under "Bleach No-No" . Perfect.
Should be used by SS bot every time someone mentions bleach.
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I've been to people who've drank bleach when I was able to work. They were in agony, it will honestly leave you needing a life time of medical care, you will never been the same again. Probably needing a permenant tracheostomy. Don't do it. It's not worth it and it probably wont kill you.
And that too .
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,024
Bleach might destroy your insides, and leave you eating pooping and peeing through tubes but still be alive. Please don't.

What about sedatives and drown in bath? You can get things otc that make you sleepy, and it would be way better than drinking any household stuff.
 
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WEASEL1234

WEASEL1234

By a thread
Jan 28, 2020
134
its all i can think about
but ive heard its not very fatal
starting to feel like its my only option and i really want to do it tonight
DON'T DO THAT.... please.
Agonising and not necessarily lethal my love
 
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Jean Améry

Enlightened
Mar 17, 2019
1,098
thanks for the replies
im just getting so desperate
i have failed too many times
i just want it all to end

Understandable. That being said if for some reason you can't shake this compulsion (bleach) I'd actually urge you to go to your local ER and ask to be admitted. This coming from someone who is vehemently opposed to psychiatry especially the involuntary variant. Bleach is just too gruesome.
Quarky00 is right: you'll wish for death and they'll keep you alive in agonizing pain none-the-less.
 
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No capacity

Member
Feb 5, 2020
54
Unless you want the most excruciating way to go please don't do this.
 
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nbn

Student
Nov 3, 2019
191
its all i can think about
but ive heard its not very fatal
starting to feel like its my only option and i really want to do it tonight
Hi. Please dont do that. There are more chances of dying by falling from your bed while sleeping than dying by drinking bleach. Is that enough to convince u
 
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SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
658
i am listening to everyone and i am in a better mood and no longer feel like drinking bleach
i took about 20 painkillers instead which wasnt an attempt, but my way of self harm
thank you for all the replies, very informing and served thier purpose.
 
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Jean Améry

Enlightened
Mar 17, 2019
1,098
i am listening to everyone and i am in a better mood and no longer feel like drinking bleach
i took about 20 painkillers instead which wasnt an attempt, but my way of self harm
thank you for all the replies, very informing and served thier purpose.

That's good to hear. I hope you'll get a good night's sleep. You did the right thing asking for advice instead of doing something you'd surely regret. Take care.
 
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SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
658
That's good to hear. I hope you'll get a good night's sleep. You did the right thing asking for advice instead of doing something you'd surely regret. Take care.
thank you
i thought posting on here was the best option
you too
 
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HadEnough1974

I try to be funny...
Jan 14, 2020
688
It's a bad idea, don't do it. Are you convinced now?
 
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TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,663
It is a VERY VERY BAD idea because not only is the success rate very low (and survival is high), but also the potential for permanent damage to your organs and stomach is high. This isn't even accounting for the fallout after you are saved; which includes a psych ward stay, hospitalization, medical bills, social ostracization, and more. I would look into a more peaceful and reliable method instead.
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,024
I'm glad to hear you are feeling a bit better. I know you've been suffering and struggling with wanting to exit this world for a while, and it seems to be getting worse for you. I really wish there was a quick convenient way I could recommend, but outside of drowning and hanging there aren't a lot of at home options.

it seems a lot of people have trouble with partial. I am amazingly curious to try it to see why it is so difficult, and if I could pull it off. The hesitation is the possibility of success lol. Sending you hugs and love. I'm glad you reached out to us we love you.
 
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Jean Améry

Enlightened
Mar 17, 2019
1,098
yes i am convinced.
i took a small overdose instead which is a way i sometimes self harm

I guess that is the lesser of two evils, you do what you got to do. Do reach out if you ever feel like that again.
 
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Kikoo Loool

Enlightened
Feb 25, 2019
1,128
its all i can think about
but ive heard its not very fatal
starting to feel like its my only option and i really want to do it tonight
It's very painful and you're likely to throw up before drinking a lethal dose, you would suffer physically a lot and remain disabled.
 
SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
658
I guess that is the lesser of two evils, you do what you got to do. Do reach out if you ever feel like that again.
thank you, will do.
ss is a very supportive and understanding community, which im grateful and thankful to have
 
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Jessamine

Specialist
Oct 28, 2019
352
i am listening to everyone and i am in a better mood and no longer feel like drinking bleach
i took about 20 painkillers instead which wasnt an attempt, but my way of self harm
thank you for all the replies, very informing and served thier purpose.
Wait.. what did you OD on? I took 20 aspirin once and still had to have a stomach pump. That many paracetamol could do some damage potentially. You may want to get some advice as to whether you're at risk of harm from what you've taken x
 
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