Venting Can somebody please please try to talk me out of CTBing in February of next year?

[whenwillthepainstop]

I need a couple months to plan because I'm a very thorough person, but I want to try one more time to change my mind. Because by the time I've fully planned everything, it's basically too late. I have a method in mind but haven't started planning yet. Suicide will end my pain but it creates a lot of problems for other people(mainly my bf) and passes my pain onto him. I know at the end of the day the choice is mine, but I want someone to at least try to change my mind. I want someone to make me live. Actually choose to live instead of only surviving due to procrastinating my own death. This is probably the last attempt I am making at some sort of recovery and because this is the recovery section I hope someone will stop me from CTBing.

 

[Abyss Dweller]

Problem is such a large part of this (if not all of it) is subjective so without knowing why you would want to CTB it is hard to say anything worthwhile other than going to therapy.

I could say cliche phares like life is beautiful, time will heal but my guess is that nobody on this forum really wants to hear that.

So why would you want to CTB?

 

[SchizoGymnast]

I need a couple months to plan because I'm a very thorough person, but I want to try one more time to change my mind. Because by the time I've fully planned everything, it's basically too late. I have a method in mind but haven't started planning yet. Suicide will end my pain but it creates a lot of problems for other people(mainly my bf) and passes my pain onto him. I know at the end of the day the choice is mine, but I want someone to at least try to change my mind. I want someone to make me live. Actually choose to live instead of only surviving due to procrastinating my own death. This is probably the last attempt I am making at some sort of recovery and because this is the recovery section I hope someone will stop me from CTBing.

PM me.

 

[whenwillthepainstop]

Problem is such a large part of this (if not all of it) is subjective so without knowing why you would want to CTB it is hard to say anything worthwhile other than going to therapy.

I could say cliche phares like life is beautiful, time will heal but my guess is that nobody on this forum really wants to hear that.

So why would you want to CTB?

To explain my situation would take forever unfortunately and I don't have all day and I am sure the people here don't have all day either lol. I'd tell you my life story but it's just tedious to explain. But basically life sucks and I'm mentally ill and can't afford treatment rn.

PM me.

Hey sorry but I don't want to PM anyone here as it's risky, I'm not saying you have bad intentions but just out of my own paranoia I don't plan on making any friends here or PMing anyone. It's not personal