Can I just drop outta society. Like if I agree not to hurt myself is there somewhere I can just got and watch tv or read books or something.
is that too much to ask for. I get it, people don't want me to die, if I agree can't some organization just give me a place to exist and not have a phone or something
Hi! Well, I kinda am doing that now. Almost three years ago, I moved to a small rural village where I have one family member who also lives a very reclusive lifestyle. I am in "town", he lives five miles out.
It took a while to figure out how to do this. (I live alone.) I do have to go out about once every two weeks to run errands: post office, grocery store, that sort of thing. The only TV I have is over-the-air, which means about three channels -- not much choice. Until recently, I had no wifi, had to use my android for everything internet, and since shopping here for anything is not good, I order things I need online. It was very lonely the first two years, except for the people who continued calling me and telling me how to live my life (yeah, right). I blocked them. That has been a big help. I have one good friend (lives in another state) who frequently calls just to chat and the family member who lives close by stops in about twice a week (we get along well). I have not discussed my issues with either of them.
The most difficult part of this was, with nobody to talk things over with, my thoughts would go off the deep end, crazy thoughts, paranoid as hell. It took a while to realize and stop that. It also took a while to get used to being alone all the time. At first, I tried making new friends. That was a Big Joke. The last few months have been much better (since I have had no contact with those who caused trouble). The good thing is that I am financially independent, after 50+ years of working, and I live frugally (nothing to spend money on, no movie theaters or other forms of entertainment, who needs nice clothes when you stay home 99% of the time).
Now, I have become so accustomed to the reclusive life that it is getting more difficult to go out at all. Summer is coming, the snow has melted (for now), it is warming up a bit (low 60's F), and I can go out in my small yard and play with my little furry companion. More walks, although I am becoming a bit paranoid about being seen out there by neighbors. Not too sure this is going in a positive direction, but wth, it's better than it used to be with other people sending me down into the pit.