Venting Can anyone else turn their life around?

[nooo2]

I know that my problems could be fixed, not fast but I know that it's an option. The thing is, I don't want to, and is that just my depression talking? I skipped out on going to a therapist because I really don't want to go, I don't want to get anti-depressants or pills to help my anxiety anymore. I don't know what to do, does anyone else relate to this? I just don't want to live in this disgusting world, society is only getting worse and I'm disgusted by all the negative shit in the world and I feel like the good can't surpass it anymore, I just want to die.

 

[GreyMonkey]

I hear you. I'm in this constant dance too.

Yet ctb doesn't actually seem like an option. It's fucking hard and would destroy my parents.

The only choice I have is to really try.

 

[magick'sgone]

Depends on your individual reason. My head is all smashed up (physically and mentally). Getting it fixed is an expensive gamble that I can't afford, so I'm hoping for an opportunity to nope out. I think it's not too late for many other people, though, and fully encourage their attempts at recovery.

 

[GlowingCactus]

I've had a debilitating chronic illness for more than 11 years. I've seen many doctors and none has been able to figure out what is causing my symptoms. Maybe if I kept trying, one day someone would figure it out but that seems very unlikely and at this point I'm no longer willing to try. People with a similar set of symptoms to mine usually never find what is causing their symptoms. Even if I did find an accurate diagnosis, I feel so sick that I imagine a treatment would probably take years to start improving my health enough to make my life worth living. So I've given up and I'm not ashamed of that. I feel there's a limit to how much suffering I'm willing to bear. If you can't find an answer, you can't go on like this indefinitely.

 

[Jolene40]

I've had a debilitating chronic illness for more than 11 years. I've seen many doctors and none has been able to figure out what is causing my symptoms. Maybe if I kept trying, one day someone would figure it out but that seems very unlikely and at this point I'm no longer willing to try. People with a similar set of symptoms to mine usually never find what is causing their symptoms. Even if I did find an accurate diagnosis, I feel so sick that I imagine a treatment would probably take years to start improving my health enough to make my life worth living. So I've given up and I'm not ashamed of that. I feel there's a limit to how much suffering I'm willing to bear. If you can't find an answer, you can't go on like this indefinitely.

I have experienced the same. Do you have neuropathies/ nerve damage? That's the absolute worst

 

[Rachel74]

My can't be fixed sadly, bipolar and ME is a life sentence. It is just about bearable at the moment and i have one last ditch attempt at new meds and if that does not work I will more than likely CBA. Now I don't want to do this but I am in so much pain mentally and physically. I am 44 and feel like I am 80.