clandestine
still rolling stones
- Nov 17, 2019
- 47
Hi.
I'm new here. I'll start with a brief history for you to get a better idea. I've been physically ill since I was a teenager, but it's gotten a lot worse as I've gotten older and into my 20s. At this point, it's affected every aspect of my life. I'm unable to work, socialise, yadayadayada.
for those with experience of having physical problems, how do you cope & carry on when nothing makes the condition any better?
I've tried a lot of things, research, various chemicals/medicines/hormones, you name it and nothing has ever even touched it, really. I had bad experiences with doctors when I was younger, until I eventually resigned and gave up searching with them. After years of continuous progression and degeneration I've tried going for another round of trying with the doctors and I'm currently in the progress of it, but I don't know if it'll be any more fruitful this time around.
I've been enduring it for so long. I try to hold on to the hope that I could get better someday, find a cure, or thinking how other people have it worse than me but like without being able to work, I feel like short of winning the lottery, I'm just effed, and CTB is my only realistic option. I can't afford the healthcare I need, or the expensive diagnostic tests I could if I could go private. Other people do have it worse and I do truly believe the possibility of getting better is out there, but without any of it becoming a reality, and my youth being wasted, it does little to offer any real solace.
I'm new here. I'll start with a brief history for you to get a better idea. I've been physically ill since I was a teenager, but it's gotten a lot worse as I've gotten older and into my 20s. At this point, it's affected every aspect of my life. I'm unable to work, socialise, yadayadayada.
for those with experience of having physical problems, how do you cope & carry on when nothing makes the condition any better?
I've tried a lot of things, research, various chemicals/medicines/hormones, you name it and nothing has ever even touched it, really. I had bad experiences with doctors when I was younger, until I eventually resigned and gave up searching with them. After years of continuous progression and degeneration I've tried going for another round of trying with the doctors and I'm currently in the progress of it, but I don't know if it'll be any more fruitful this time around.
I've been enduring it for so long. I try to hold on to the hope that I could get better someday, find a cure, or thinking how other people have it worse than me but like without being able to work, I feel like short of winning the lottery, I'm just effed, and CTB is my only realistic option. I can't afford the healthcare I need, or the expensive diagnostic tests I could if I could go private. Other people do have it worse and I do truly believe the possibility of getting better is out there, but without any of it becoming a reality, and my youth being wasted, it does little to offer any real solace.